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School began yesterday. I am not ready for this. I do not want to do this anymore but I can't quit yet. Not yet. This is my last year or semester...depending on how long I want to drag this out. What am I suppossed to do with the rest of my life? Buy an RV? Drive around the country taking jobs here and there when I need the money? Sounds like fun but is it tangible? Or, do I go to France and teach English for a year? That means I have to leave Krystal, Riley, Pippin and Keifer. What do I do? I need a message from a far off place to either help direct me along this path I am on or along the other path I see diverging in the woods up ahead. I just want to live and love. Futures and careers sometimes seem like nightmares we create to lessen the importance of the present moment. Does any of this really matter in the end? When I go, it won't be the money I made or the praise I was given but rather the lingering moments with those I love that carry me through to whatever waits on the other side of life. Take it for what it is...just a giant bouncing ball with an unknown destination.