Being Alive....
I can't be expected to keep my mouth shut when people I care very much about are feeling crappy... I just CANNOT...
Life is too short. Regrets come; regrets go. Always in the midst of working on various issues in our lives, we feel silly, stupid... foolish. It's normal. EXTREMELY normal.
One day, you'll look back and you will laugh. It won't seem like such a big deal.
Sometimes I think I am 'too old' or it is 'too late' or the issues are 'too much'... i'm WRONG.
at the same time, I am such a hypocrite. I look at a person I care very much about hurting and feeling bad about themselves... I dunno the whole story. I know tidbits... I can sense some of what caused them. I understand. I've hurt myself in the name of self-preservation, too.... it's a nasty awakening. but you cared enough to get there. keep going. want something for yourself. why am I a hypocrite? because I am really good at being pissed at myself, too....
I have this horrible habit of looking at my past and comparing... I would feel just as bad if my crimes against myself had been lesser...
there is a point to pain. reminds you that you are alive. you. are. alive.
Life is too short. Regrets come; regrets go. Always in the midst of working on various issues in our lives, we feel silly, stupid... foolish. It's normal. EXTREMELY normal.
One day, you'll look back and you will laugh. It won't seem like such a big deal.
Sometimes I think I am 'too old' or it is 'too late' or the issues are 'too much'... i'm WRONG.
at the same time, I am such a hypocrite. I look at a person I care very much about hurting and feeling bad about themselves... I dunno the whole story. I know tidbits... I can sense some of what caused them. I understand. I've hurt myself in the name of self-preservation, too.... it's a nasty awakening. but you cared enough to get there. keep going. want something for yourself. why am I a hypocrite? because I am really good at being pissed at myself, too....
I have this horrible habit of looking at my past and comparing... I would feel just as bad if my crimes against myself had been lesser...
there is a point to pain. reminds you that you are alive. you. are. alive.