I'm back
I'll just start by saying, i'm back, I'm back from not journaling, I'm tired of sending my journals to my email address.. I hate having no place to put my personal stuff!!!
This is my damn journal!! And i'm gonna write what evern the hell i want to.
So if my vanilla life bores you, read somewhere else. If your not into kids, you definatly need to go somewhere else. This is my life acording to me, oh ya and if you don't like my spelling then you spell check it, lol.
Anyway, Ive been doing the 360 thing, and i just don't feel all that comfortable there plus, you know how yahoo is, anyday it could go bye bye. like most the photo's did, they outsourced them.
A little about me:
I'm pensive, and i'm very deep on the inside, i over think, over worry and over anylize almost everything, although i have learned how to let things roll off my back alot, it's not always been my best decision to make sometimes and being passive about things don't get things done when needed, but, maybe i'll save myself a heart attack.
For sometime now, i've felt like no one really gives a shit about me. Sure some of my friends email me jokes, but no one ever visits. I think Mori calls me and keeps in touch with me the most, but even so, no one in a very long time has cared about me or what's going on with me or my life or my feelings.. I guess that's just a part of not having a man in my life.
Sure there's the kids dad, and Tracy, but im not connected to the kids dad (second husband) that way anymore, and Tracy well, he has his own problems and even though ive tried to talk, for year's i tried to talk, he don't listen, so i journal.
I have Scorp to thank for that, He use to make me journal almost every night and email them to Him. No certian order, no certian way, just rough draft it and don't go back and try correcting things, just do it and send it. I've journaled ever since. i use to message him and thank Him occasionally for the things he taught me.
I use to journal along time ago.. from the time i turned 11 i think till i began divorce procedings when i was 21. The bastard took all my journals he could find and read them and showed his parent and his attorney in order to gain custody of our son. He lost, but so did i, i lost trust in writing and never journaled again till i met Scorp. Now i do it when i think about it.
I really don't have a whole lot to write tonight, i'm pretty sleepy but can't sleep, long story.
I have to take the kids dad to the hospital tomorow and have him admitted. his leg is bad again, infection and drainage, swelling, chills, odor. I imagine he will be in a week or two, but i don't tell him that. Hard enough to get him to go.
I'll write more at a later time..
This is my damn journal!! And i'm gonna write what evern the hell i want to.
So if my vanilla life bores you, read somewhere else. If your not into kids, you definatly need to go somewhere else. This is my life acording to me, oh ya and if you don't like my spelling then you spell check it, lol.
Anyway, Ive been doing the 360 thing, and i just don't feel all that comfortable there plus, you know how yahoo is, anyday it could go bye bye. like most the photo's did, they outsourced them.
A little about me:
I'm pensive, and i'm very deep on the inside, i over think, over worry and over anylize almost everything, although i have learned how to let things roll off my back alot, it's not always been my best decision to make sometimes and being passive about things don't get things done when needed, but, maybe i'll save myself a heart attack.
For sometime now, i've felt like no one really gives a shit about me. Sure some of my friends email me jokes, but no one ever visits. I think Mori calls me and keeps in touch with me the most, but even so, no one in a very long time has cared about me or what's going on with me or my life or my feelings.. I guess that's just a part of not having a man in my life.
Sure there's the kids dad, and Tracy, but im not connected to the kids dad (second husband) that way anymore, and Tracy well, he has his own problems and even though ive tried to talk, for year's i tried to talk, he don't listen, so i journal.
I have Scorp to thank for that, He use to make me journal almost every night and email them to Him. No certian order, no certian way, just rough draft it and don't go back and try correcting things, just do it and send it. I've journaled ever since. i use to message him and thank Him occasionally for the things he taught me.
I use to journal along time ago.. from the time i turned 11 i think till i began divorce procedings when i was 21. The bastard took all my journals he could find and read them and showed his parent and his attorney in order to gain custody of our son. He lost, but so did i, i lost trust in writing and never journaled again till i met Scorp. Now i do it when i think about it.
I really don't have a whole lot to write tonight, i'm pretty sleepy but can't sleep, long story.
I have to take the kids dad to the hospital tomorow and have him admitted. his leg is bad again, infection and drainage, swelling, chills, odor. I imagine he will be in a week or two, but i don't tell him that. Hard enough to get him to go.
I'll write more at a later time..