wtf man!
i feel like i have WAY too much time on my hands.
i dont know what to do.
i dont want a job tho, not now at least.
i tired of doing the same things everyday
going to school, coming home, eating..blah blah.
i need excitement, or something to look forward to.
but there is absolutely nothing i look forward to when i wake up.
not anymore.
i wanna feel alive.
i wanna feel like theres a reason for me to be here.
but it just seems like everyone just doenst notice me.
in class i have no one to talk to.
i want someone to look forward to seeing me.
that wont happen soon.
i dont care what anyone says, that they are here for you and blah blah blah i dont know what other bullshit...at the end you are still alone.
im sitting here, for the past two days ive been in need of someone to talk to.
someone who will understand, and not judge me...i know what people tell me is for my own good but i dont want not now....
i want them to listen to me, listen to what i got to say, listen to what i fucking feel.
how im hurting, and no one sees it.
im hurting more than you can imagine.
i often try to numb this pain with a few beers but at the end of the night im right back where i started, feeling as empty as usual.
looking around and realizing that things have gone down the drain and i havent succeeded in anything.
im still the same empty and confused person.
its time for a change.
but what?
♥ isabel
i dont know what to do.
i dont want a job tho, not now at least.
i tired of doing the same things everyday
going to school, coming home, eating..blah blah.
i need excitement, or something to look forward to.
but there is absolutely nothing i look forward to when i wake up.
not anymore.
i wanna feel alive.
i wanna feel like theres a reason for me to be here.
but it just seems like everyone just doenst notice me.
in class i have no one to talk to.
i want someone to look forward to seeing me.
that wont happen soon.
i dont care what anyone says, that they are here for you and blah blah blah i dont know what other bullshit...at the end you are still alone.
im sitting here, for the past two days ive been in need of someone to talk to.
someone who will understand, and not judge me...i know what people tell me is for my own good but i dont want not now....
i want them to listen to me, listen to what i got to say, listen to what i fucking feel.
how im hurting, and no one sees it.
im hurting more than you can imagine.
i often try to numb this pain with a few beers but at the end of the night im right back where i started, feeling as empty as usual.
looking around and realizing that things have gone down the drain and i havent succeeded in anything.
im still the same empty and confused person.
its time for a change.
but what?
♥ isabel