once again im torn into pieces.
its weird.
this weekend,
friday.
was amazing.
A M A Z I N G.
i guess hanging out with someone you have a crush on can always be good.
saturday was awesome too cuz we went to javis, and it was all fun.
sunday wasnt all that great, having your bestfriend and someone you like fight cannot be good.
but she had the right to fight with him since he was acting like a dick i even wanted to hit him, then we hung out with david and them like usual after we get disappointed by someone else.
I JUST CANT LOOK, ITS really KILLING ME.
its like i put myself in this situation to just hurt myself.
its weird i dont know what im doing anymore.
i just go along with whatever is happening.
its not that im following what people are doing cuz i do the things i do cuz i want to but its that i havent found who i am yet.
i have personalities, first im this caring, loving, a really good person but then at times i feel that im not at all that way and i hate that person.
its just that with everything thats happened i dont know who to be anymore.
all my life ive been that innocent and caring person and it got my nowhere, except for once, it got me the best thing anyone can have and i lost it cuz im stupid like that.
it seems that as im growing up i just mess up more than the year before when in my head i just wanna do good.
i wanna make the people that love me proud because they are the only ones that deserve the best of me, and there i am wanting other people to actually care about me when they wont.
i dont know.
this...
whats going on in my head.
its weird.
and confusing.
and thinking that i messed up now.
i cant imagine how much it would hurt some people.
i dont know what to do.
♥ isabel
i just cant look its killing me
this weekend,
friday.
was amazing.
A M A Z I N G.
i guess hanging out with someone you have a crush on can always be good.
saturday was awesome too cuz we went to javis, and it was all fun.
sunday wasnt all that great, having your bestfriend and someone you like fight cannot be good.
but she had the right to fight with him since he was acting like a dick i even wanted to hit him, then we hung out with david and them like usual after we get disappointed by someone else.
I JUST CANT LOOK, ITS really KILLING ME.
its like i put myself in this situation to just hurt myself.
its weird i dont know what im doing anymore.
i just go along with whatever is happening.
its not that im following what people are doing cuz i do the things i do cuz i want to but its that i havent found who i am yet.
i have personalities, first im this caring, loving, a really good person but then at times i feel that im not at all that way and i hate that person.
its just that with everything thats happened i dont know who to be anymore.
all my life ive been that innocent and caring person and it got my nowhere, except for once, it got me the best thing anyone can have and i lost it cuz im stupid like that.
it seems that as im growing up i just mess up more than the year before when in my head i just wanna do good.
i wanna make the people that love me proud because they are the only ones that deserve the best of me, and there i am wanting other people to actually care about me when they wont.
i dont know.
this...
whats going on in my head.
its weird.
and confusing.
and thinking that i messed up now.
i cant imagine how much it would hurt some people.
i dont know what to do.
♥ isabel
i just cant look its killing me