update
I will not be having surgery as scheduled - due to a paperwork screw up my insurance, and Hannahs has been cancelled out completely and I now have to reapply - this sucks a lot -
It will take at least a week and more like three before it is reinstated - hannah is getting seriously ill again - not to mention her cast is supposed to come off friday - what am I supposed to do just leave it on for an extra 3 weeks?......... This also really screws my quest to get healthy - After having found out that my particular morbid obeisity is not due to lack of excersize or improper diet, but due to issues with my chemichal make up and in part a side effect of the corticosteroids that kept me alive when I was a child - which I still have to take at least twice a year for 2 weeks. - I have been jumping through hoops to qualify for weight loss surgery - a gastric sleeve actually - I was 5 months into my 6 month qualifying period......... but since it must be 6 consecutive months, I will now have to start back at the begining- as apossed to being able to start my journey to a healthier weight in late january or february it will now be july or august........
I miss my daughter - we cant afford a visit - airfare and gas are still too steep for that - I have been considering moving back there to be near her and I think I am probably going to do that when my lease here is up. I love the UP and a lot of the people I have met are wonderful, but I need my daughter - without her in my life something is always going to be missing.
I talked to NMU about getting back in - and it is no way near as easy as they had told me it would be when I left....... that is also going to take quite a while - and likely won't happen anyway because I would only be allowed back as a "provisional" student and would not be permited to take more than part time courses - which most likely would not be enough to qualify for the financial aid that would enable me to afford to go.....it pisses me off - one year from completion and it may as well be ten.
I really really hate the way my head works - or doesn't work. I think, no I know that I should go back to therapy and see the shrink again - and probably even go see the psychologist they want me to see too - but that is just another thing i cant do without insurance....
we are also having some finacial troubles to boot - my brother holds the insurance policy on our van, which he was asked to cancel since we cannot afford the 75 dollars with hannahs birthday and xmas this month, but he decided not to do it and now not only are we supposed to pay him for it, but we are also supposed to pay the overdraft fee from his bank. where the hell money grows on trees - I need to find it.
oh well enough griping and crying about shit
It will take at least a week and more like three before it is reinstated - hannah is getting seriously ill again - not to mention her cast is supposed to come off friday - what am I supposed to do just leave it on for an extra 3 weeks?......... This also really screws my quest to get healthy - After having found out that my particular morbid obeisity is not due to lack of excersize or improper diet, but due to issues with my chemichal make up and in part a side effect of the corticosteroids that kept me alive when I was a child - which I still have to take at least twice a year for 2 weeks. - I have been jumping through hoops to qualify for weight loss surgery - a gastric sleeve actually - I was 5 months into my 6 month qualifying period......... but since it must be 6 consecutive months, I will now have to start back at the begining- as apossed to being able to start my journey to a healthier weight in late january or february it will now be july or august........
I miss my daughter - we cant afford a visit - airfare and gas are still too steep for that - I have been considering moving back there to be near her and I think I am probably going to do that when my lease here is up. I love the UP and a lot of the people I have met are wonderful, but I need my daughter - without her in my life something is always going to be missing.
I talked to NMU about getting back in - and it is no way near as easy as they had told me it would be when I left....... that is also going to take quite a while - and likely won't happen anyway because I would only be allowed back as a "provisional" student and would not be permited to take more than part time courses - which most likely would not be enough to qualify for the financial aid that would enable me to afford to go.....it pisses me off - one year from completion and it may as well be ten.
I really really hate the way my head works - or doesn't work. I think, no I know that I should go back to therapy and see the shrink again - and probably even go see the psychologist they want me to see too - but that is just another thing i cant do without insurance....
we are also having some finacial troubles to boot - my brother holds the insurance policy on our van, which he was asked to cancel since we cannot afford the 75 dollars with hannahs birthday and xmas this month, but he decided not to do it and now not only are we supposed to pay him for it, but we are also supposed to pay the overdraft fee from his bank. where the hell money grows on trees - I need to find it.
oh well enough griping and crying about shit