One day at a time
Went to visit mom this morning, her breathing is still really good so she is able to rest at least. I am not sure at this point if what she told my dad this morning came from the doctor or just something she may have overheard but it would seem that the time prognosis is maybe a month. It is so hard to try to come to grips with the thought of losing my mom in the next month or anytime for that matter but I have to hold it together for my dad and for my kids. Of course when no one else is around I cry my eyes out LOL. I know that when the end comes, she will be at peace with no pain, and no disease and she will be whole again and will be waiting for me when my time comes. Still doesn't make it any easier. It is crazy but the smallest things make me cry. I will just all of a sudden think, "She won't get to see Courtney's 8th grade graduation," and the tears will just pour. I know in my heart that she will see it all she will just be there in spirit.
I bounce back and forth between being depressed, crying and laughing at something she says. I am drained. Just when I think I have cried all I can for the day something else sets me off. All I am praying for at this point is that God will make her passing a peaceful one and that she will not suffer. I'll try to update more later if I get the chance.
Hugs to all
I bounce back and forth between being depressed, crying and laughing at something she says. I am drained. Just when I think I have cried all I can for the day something else sets me off. All I am praying for at this point is that God will make her passing a peaceful one and that she will not suffer. I'll try to update more later if I get the chance.
Hugs to all