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[insanitydefined]

"The Hypocrite's Dissolution"

awakening from a dream
of yesterdays and goodbyes
i curl up with a bottle
drink myself back to sleep
here's a toast to the things
i've lost to my own mistakes
i never said i was perfect
or even trustworthy

you meant the world to me
that's why i had to hurt you
i needed you to see just
how ugly i really am
i told you right from the start
that i was not worth loving
and now you've seen it for yourself
with the scars to prove it

now i'm left to my own devices
a bottle of vodka
and a razorblade
it's time to make amends
for the things that i have been
and when they find me lying
naked and lifeless
in a pool of blood
i just hope
you'll believe
that i am truly sorry