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debrah: hey girl... it's been a long time. i'm still coping with jc life... i guess. =P hahahs. how are you?
alright. so i had parent-teacher meeting today. =/
yes. it was alright.... but, it sucked after the meeting.
my mum got pissed at me for nothing.
started to say how helpless she felt... and threatened to commit suicide.
imagine how i felt.
it's like... so wth. felt threatened, scared... mixed emotions.
instead of breaking down to cry, i got pissed. =.=
told her that i won't be like her.
i'll act out what i say. so when i say i'm going to work hard, i will.
and when one day i finally just give up and decide to be a loser, that will be the day i tell her that i'm committing suicide. mark my words, i'll do what i say. i'll make sure of that.
walked away from her to suppress the urge of screaming out in public.
for that moment, i just thought of how much i needed you.
just to hear me rant and tell me that everything's going to be alright.
i just needed you beside me, to comfort me.
but, guess what. you aren't here.
can't expect much from you anyways.
you say that i was giving you attitude.
you said ptm was bad.
you said that you were dead tired.
but you didn't listen to what i had to say.
i had so much to tell you... but... nowhere to start.
I MUST LEARN TO HAVE LESS EXPECTATIONS!!!! in fact, maybe none would be better.
in any case, i'm going to do as Mr Sabar says...
i'll draw up a timetable, stick to it and get jc over and done with .
* - gen. i can't always be there.
alright. so i had parent-teacher meeting today. =/
yes. it was alright.... but, it sucked after the meeting.
my mum got pissed at me for nothing.
started to say how helpless she felt... and threatened to commit suicide.
imagine how i felt.
it's like... so wth. felt threatened, scared... mixed emotions.
instead of breaking down to cry, i got pissed. =.=
told her that i won't be like her.
i'll act out what i say. so when i say i'm going to work hard, i will.
and when one day i finally just give up and decide to be a loser, that will be the day i tell her that i'm committing suicide. mark my words, i'll do what i say. i'll make sure of that.
walked away from her to suppress the urge of screaming out in public.
for that moment, i just thought of how much i needed you.
just to hear me rant and tell me that everything's going to be alright.
i just needed you beside me, to comfort me.
but, guess what. you aren't here.
can't expect much from you anyways.
you say that i was giving you attitude.
you said ptm was bad.
you said that you were dead tired.
but you didn't listen to what i had to say.
i had so much to tell you... but... nowhere to start.
I MUST LEARN TO HAVE LESS EXPECTATIONS!!!! in fact, maybe none would be better.
in any case, i'm going to do as Mr Sabar says...
i'll draw up a timetable, stick to it and get jc over and done with .
* - gen. i can't always be there.