May 16, 2012 17:40
Just realized something and needed to write it down before I lost it. Bear with me while I try to convey this strange thought:
Jacob, while he doesn't per say 'own' many of the things he does, he doesn't ever let anything own him. There is a difference between owning something, and letting something own you.
I try to own everything I do. And when I do this, if I fail, it ends up owning me. It seems to me like this is a lot like playing offensive or defensively. I play offensively. I push forward and attack, which is good because that's the only way to 'win'. But that also means that when I don't win, I lose. It's a one or the other kind of thing. Either I win, or I lose. There's no in between for my approach to life.
Jacob, on the other hand, plays defensively. He doesn't really go after things the same way I do, and that way he's not fighting to win all the time, so he can't lose. He plays enough to protect himself, but isn't really a 'go-getter'. It's kind of genius.
Just another one of those things that I respect him for immensely, especially because I will/can never understand it. It's not how I'm wired. I love that kid, and I have to hope that this difference makes us that much stronger.