Once you get what you want, that's when you've got something to lose
Jacob,
I know I can be really obnoxious sometimes, way too overdramatic and emotional, and completely hypocritical, but I promise it's only because I'm scared to lose you. Now that I've put myself on the line to fight for me and you, I've openly admitted that I have feelings for you, and I'm invested in us. Not that I wasn't before, but it wasn't so much of a known fact before. I could still get out of me and you, if I had wanted to. I could still run away, and be scared, and take the easy way out. But now it's all out there, and I don't think I've ever been this terrified of losing something/someone. I mean, sure, I've gotten scared, and I've gotten desperate when I thought I was losing someone close to me. But I've never been this worried all the time, about losing someone.
What we have is real, and I have finally made myself face that fact. It's really overwhelming and scary, but its the truth. We have something really great. As soon as I let myself, I was able to picture so much with you. I love you. For real. And I promise I'll keep trying to let you love me. I know I'm not always the best at opening up my heart to you, and letting you into my life completely, but I want more than anything to do right by you, after everything you've done for me. So I'll try to let you in, any and every way I know how to.
I love you. And I know I've said this before, but please don't forget to love me back.
Michelle
I know I can be really obnoxious sometimes, way too overdramatic and emotional, and completely hypocritical, but I promise it's only because I'm scared to lose you. Now that I've put myself on the line to fight for me and you, I've openly admitted that I have feelings for you, and I'm invested in us. Not that I wasn't before, but it wasn't so much of a known fact before. I could still get out of me and you, if I had wanted to. I could still run away, and be scared, and take the easy way out. But now it's all out there, and I don't think I've ever been this terrified of losing something/someone. I mean, sure, I've gotten scared, and I've gotten desperate when I thought I was losing someone close to me. But I've never been this worried all the time, about losing someone.
What we have is real, and I have finally made myself face that fact. It's really overwhelming and scary, but its the truth. We have something really great. As soon as I let myself, I was able to picture so much with you. I love you. For real. And I promise I'll keep trying to let you love me. I know I'm not always the best at opening up my heart to you, and letting you into my life completely, but I want more than anything to do right by you, after everything you've done for me. So I'll try to let you in, any and every way I know how to.
I love you. And I know I've said this before, but please don't forget to love me back.
Michelle