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I'm stressed, barely have time to breathe (figuratively and literally; I have a fucking stuffy nose now), my troll is being persistent and flinging lame 4chan jokes at me, and goddamn it, I just want to spend the time to write or play games or read. I really hate this.
I'd do the Pokemon ficlets requests, but I want to refresh myself by reading the manga again, only to realize I've left them at home. I have too many movies to catch up on, too little time to watch them. I'm exhausted. Too muddled to think. I was broke until Dad sent money today.
What makes me bitter is I see new games like Sonic Chronicles come out and I have neither the time or the funds to buy and play it. The longer the game is held back from release, the better for me. Whenever someone plays a new game I want and chattering excitedly about it and doing fun fandom things with it, I want to punch a wall. Because I want to join them too. But I can't. By the time I finally catch up with a game, no one's playing or talking about it anymore, or has the interest to fangirl with me.
In short, I'm tired, frustrated, and pissed off. I just want to keep reading Lolita, I just want to write something that makes me muddled and crash and write fanfiction instead of grueling dry essays and reports, I'm just tired of being tired. I keep being shoved between two damn walls and a hard place.
I wish I had something live to cuddle, like a pet rat. Except my dorm doesn't allow rats, I believe. Fuck it. No companion to keep me sane OR a source of fluffy comfort. Gods I'm so lonely.
I know, I'm complaining. But it's hard to be cheery when you're breathing through your mouth AND keeping an eye on the clock so you're not late for something.
I'd do the Pokemon ficlets requests, but I want to refresh myself by reading the manga again, only to realize I've left them at home. I have too many movies to catch up on, too little time to watch them. I'm exhausted. Too muddled to think. I was broke until Dad sent money today.
What makes me bitter is I see new games like Sonic Chronicles come out and I have neither the time or the funds to buy and play it. The longer the game is held back from release, the better for me. Whenever someone plays a new game I want and chattering excitedly about it and doing fun fandom things with it, I want to punch a wall. Because I want to join them too. But I can't. By the time I finally catch up with a game, no one's playing or talking about it anymore, or has the interest to fangirl with me.
In short, I'm tired, frustrated, and pissed off. I just want to keep reading Lolita, I just want to write something that makes me muddled and crash and write fanfiction instead of grueling dry essays and reports, I'm just tired of being tired. I keep being shoved between two damn walls and a hard place.
I wish I had something live to cuddle, like a pet rat. Except my dorm doesn't allow rats, I believe. Fuck it. No companion to keep me sane OR a source of fluffy comfort. Gods I'm so lonely.
I know, I'm complaining. But it's hard to be cheery when you're breathing through your mouth AND keeping an eye on the clock so you're not late for something.