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iight so i aint write nothin in madd long so imma write something right now.. and i need ta blow off some steam... florida is beginning to b to much drama.. but i have fallen for someone ... and well i dont know any more... iight so i got this hernia thing and my ma aint even call da damn doctor yet.. aint that some shit.. and lets see what else.. uhm TO MUCH FUCKIN DRAMA.. shit i thought buffalo was bad and if ya'll were to be here right now.. dats some fuckin drama for yo ass... *sigh* iight well i dont really kno wat to say right about now. im just kinda pissed off about some shti right now. im just real scared right now.. about a lot of shit.. and well i just dont fuckin kno ne more.. id really like ta kno wat the fuck imma do about this shit b/c right now im in the fuckin dark about everything.. i just need soem fuckin help and everybody wantin me to come bak to buffalo.. and well i just feel like theyrs no reason.. i mean theyr is but theyr aint ya kno? all the ppl i thought was my friends.. i figured out when i moved here that aint none of em care bout me.. i still talk to maybe 5 ppl bak in buffalo and thats it.. out of allllllll the ppl i thought was my friends only 5 ppl have the decency to see if im ok or even if im still fuckin alive. and then some ppl in florida that i thought was my friends ... like i used to chill with stephanie and rick all the time but now they dont barely eva talk to me.. i tried callin steph a few times to see if she wanted to chill but ... nvm it aint nothing i should b sweating ne ways.. i moved out to florida to help maself and this shit aint working for me.. and right now im on the verge of crying.. b/c i kno that everything is falling apart.. my family, my life everything.. and i just need some reassurance that it aint gunna fall apart.. but no one can give that to me and it tears me apart to kno that shit.. i mean everything i been thinkin i been holding that shit in.... i cant tell no one how i feel about that shit b/c i dont even kno how to start and i just dont kno if i even want them to kno bout it... fuck i thought everything was going great and now this shit is going on. FUCKIN A!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i just need some fuckin help right now.. just someone.. ne one help me.. i dont kno if i can do this shit ne more.. i dont kno wat imma do but i kno a lot of ppl would b mad at me if they found out.. im shakin so bad right now and i guess i just needed to get all that out in the open.. and i kno prolly no one understood anything i said but i dont really care right now... im bout ta talk to randy so im out