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Alright.. I don't know if this will turn into a full update or not, but I am bored out of my mind, so why not make a new journal entry? Seems fairly logical. Of course.. this is me thinking.. so everything I say seems logical in my mind. *sigh* I need a life.
Well.. school starts tomorrow. I don't know if I should be excited or not. I mean, I get to meet a lot of new people (and I get to see Joe and Doug again.. and I really like them).. but.. I'm really nervous. I've transfered to a new school before and it was really hard the first few weeks because everyone had friends from previous years and I just sat off to one side. Sure, I met Eylissa and Megan and them within the first week, but I really didn't feel like a part of their group for a few weeks.. just a cling on. And now I get to do it again. For what? Another two years to make friends and then off to college I go.. where it will be the same damn thing. *sighs* I am excited for school.. but really fucking nervous. (YES, to all of my friends, I DO get nervous and I have been since I found out I was going to a new school..) Maybe I am worrying over nothing. Who knows. I won't for a little while. Wish me luck tomorrow.
No one is online... wait. I take that back. Quite a few people are online, they are just all away. I know it's late and I should probably get to bed.. but I want to talk to my boyfriend. I wonder if Brad is even going to get back online tonight. I talked to him earlier today and last night and I feel really good about this relationship. Yesterday (or.. the day before, rather) I found out that one person I actually knew and another person I knew through a friend had both died.. so I was a little down (more than a little because the person I knew was really sweet and all that). Brad was there to attempt to help. Someone talked to me, atleast. He wasn't in a good mood all day, either. He doesn't think he can make it over in Seattle by the end of summer quarters. Originally, he was going to move back in with his mother, but, after what sounds like an argument, he is not going back there. Not on his life. So he's thinking that he might take classes for autumn quarter, too, and figure out what he is going to do. I was here to help him.. I guess:
Berlin: ill be here for u to talk to no matter what happens...
Brad: even if im stuck here another couple months?
Berlin:yeah
Brad:id hug you right now if you were here
Berlin:i know that all of this is hard.. i cant get mad at u if u cant move back to seattle yet.. ill be here for u no matter what.. and i mean that
Brad: maybe id kiss you too
Brad: thanks berlin
Berlin: of course, brad.. ur welcome
Brad: sometimes i feel like giving up...but ur enough to keep me going
Brad: *promises to try really really hard to get back to seattle*
Berlin: *smiles* even when things get hard.. u always have me to talk to.. and i really love u
And then he ruined it by taking part of what I said the wrong way.. but you get the general idea. I really love him. I don't know why, but I do. He's really sweet and funny. He can make me smile no matter what. *sighs* I want him to move back. I'm just going to wait for him to get online. Or go to sleep. Whatever happens. I love you, Brad!
Ciao for now
~*Berlin*~
Well.. school starts tomorrow. I don't know if I should be excited or not. I mean, I get to meet a lot of new people (and I get to see Joe and Doug again.. and I really like them).. but.. I'm really nervous. I've transfered to a new school before and it was really hard the first few weeks because everyone had friends from previous years and I just sat off to one side. Sure, I met Eylissa and Megan and them within the first week, but I really didn't feel like a part of their group for a few weeks.. just a cling on. And now I get to do it again. For what? Another two years to make friends and then off to college I go.. where it will be the same damn thing. *sighs* I am excited for school.. but really fucking nervous. (YES, to all of my friends, I DO get nervous and I have been since I found out I was going to a new school..) Maybe I am worrying over nothing. Who knows. I won't for a little while. Wish me luck tomorrow.
No one is online... wait. I take that back. Quite a few people are online, they are just all away. I know it's late and I should probably get to bed.. but I want to talk to my boyfriend. I wonder if Brad is even going to get back online tonight. I talked to him earlier today and last night and I feel really good about this relationship. Yesterday (or.. the day before, rather) I found out that one person I actually knew and another person I knew through a friend had both died.. so I was a little down (more than a little because the person I knew was really sweet and all that). Brad was there to attempt to help. Someone talked to me, atleast. He wasn't in a good mood all day, either. He doesn't think he can make it over in Seattle by the end of summer quarters. Originally, he was going to move back in with his mother, but, after what sounds like an argument, he is not going back there. Not on his life. So he's thinking that he might take classes for autumn quarter, too, and figure out what he is going to do. I was here to help him.. I guess:
Berlin: ill be here for u to talk to no matter what happens...
Brad: even if im stuck here another couple months?
Berlin:yeah
Brad:id hug you right now if you were here
Berlin:i know that all of this is hard.. i cant get mad at u if u cant move back to seattle yet.. ill be here for u no matter what.. and i mean that
Brad: maybe id kiss you too
Brad: thanks berlin
Berlin: of course, brad.. ur welcome
Brad: sometimes i feel like giving up...but ur enough to keep me going
Brad: *promises to try really really hard to get back to seattle*
Berlin: *smiles* even when things get hard.. u always have me to talk to.. and i really love u
And then he ruined it by taking part of what I said the wrong way.. but you get the general idea. I really love him. I don't know why, but I do. He's really sweet and funny. He can make me smile no matter what. *sighs* I want him to move back. I'm just going to wait for him to get online. Or go to sleep. Whatever happens. I love you, Brad!
Ciao for now
~*Berlin*~