My mood... and why I hate it SO FUCKING MUCH RIGHT NOW ARGH.
I was fine for most of today, happy, not really anything out of the ordinary. But ONE thing up in the lodge in the mountains, I don't remember what now, reminded me of him and now that's all I can think about. In the past, I would send him a text saying I missed him, or something. But... ugh. It's all different now and I'm not sure I like it. I mean, I felt the break up coming on and I was ready for it. From time to time, I wanted to break up, but I couldn't.
So.. that brings me to my next question.
Why, after 3 weeks, does it still hurt so fucking bad?
I know. It lasted just over 9 months. And on rough terms. But.. I got over Adam faster and healed faster. Nothing special there. But it's so hard for me to get over Jordan.
:(
Oh, and just for the record: Brad and I = NOT boyfriend/girlfriend. Just friends.
Which is fine by me since my mental state is a roller coaster.
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I miss him.
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<3
Berlin
Edit: He deleted me as a MySpace friend. Thanks for making me cry. More.
So.. that brings me to my next question.
Why, after 3 weeks, does it still hurt so fucking bad?
I know. It lasted just over 9 months. And on rough terms. But.. I got over Adam faster and healed faster. Nothing special there. But it's so hard for me to get over Jordan.
:(
Oh, and just for the record: Brad and I = NOT boyfriend/girlfriend. Just friends.
Which is fine by me since my mental state is a roller coaster.
....
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..
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I miss him.
.
..
...
....
<3
Berlin
Edit: He deleted me as a MySpace friend. Thanks for making me cry. More.