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stayed like two weeks at raylenes
joe & i did tons of stuff for her birthday
didnt really get a reaction, i dont know
im sure she liked it but it made it feel kinna wasted
at least she didnt have a crappy crying birthday
i got her a kitten, his name is sneaky pete
i think she loves him, yepp
me & joe have been hanging out
& getting along well
[high five]
i miss nick
i want him here with me
so so so sososoo bad
waiting has gotten a lot easier
since the first couple weeks
cause i was used to seeing him everyyy day
now im used to this
& what used to be me seeing him
is now me talking to him
which is good enough for me
beep
this ive been thinking about
WAY DEEPER than whats here
but i can only word it well in my face
im REALLY scared to die
like its insane
i cry when i think about it
so i decided, since im so scared to die
then i shouldnt take advantage of life
i shouldnt let something ruin a WHOLE day
cause thats a whole day not being lived for ME
i wanna be happy all the time everyday
i dont want even a MINUTE taken from me
.i wanna live my life
.right now
.how i wanna live it
so leave my business alone
im not hurting anyone
i know that for a fact
stop focusing on eachother
its completely sickening
focus on what you have left
you never know when your life can be taken
i want to appreciate everything around me
i want to appreciateee
that i CAN have feelings & emotions
cause at some point soon
what if i CANT have anything at all?
idk, kbyebye < 3
joe & i did tons of stuff for her birthday
didnt really get a reaction, i dont know
im sure she liked it but it made it feel kinna wasted
at least she didnt have a crappy crying birthday
i got her a kitten, his name is sneaky pete
i think she loves him, yepp
me & joe have been hanging out
& getting along well
[high five]
i miss nick
i want him here with me
so so so sososoo bad
waiting has gotten a lot easier
since the first couple weeks
cause i was used to seeing him everyyy day
now im used to this
& what used to be me seeing him
is now me talking to him
which is good enough for me
beep
this ive been thinking about
WAY DEEPER than whats here
but i can only word it well in my face
im REALLY scared to die
like its insane
i cry when i think about it
so i decided, since im so scared to die
then i shouldnt take advantage of life
i shouldnt let something ruin a WHOLE day
cause thats a whole day not being lived for ME
i wanna be happy all the time everyday
i dont want even a MINUTE taken from me
.i wanna live my life
.right now
.how i wanna live it
so leave my business alone
im not hurting anyone
i know that for a fact
stop focusing on eachother
its completely sickening
focus on what you have left
you never know when your life can be taken
i want to appreciate everything around me
i want to appreciateee
that i CAN have feelings & emotions
cause at some point soon
what if i CANT have anything at all?
idk, kbyebye < 3