Curiouser
Hm, not sure what I've written about recently, so I'll just recap a few things.
Lets go back to Christmas time.
I just want to let you all know, that working in a studio during Christmas is the worse idea ever. It is absolutely, and completely insane. There is no other way to really describe it. I'd arrive, for my 8 or 10 hour shift, be handed a camera, pointed in the direction of a camera room, and basically took a different family every 10 minutes. O_o a lot of the time, there was no break, I'd chug water or shovel crackers into my mouth whenever I could. The paychecks made it worth it, almost. The seasonal workers were morons. I couldn't believe how incompetent they were. We were very happy to see them go in January.
But since Christmas is over, so are the hours, and the good paychecks.. And I'm back to 8hrs-12hrs a week currently. Which is horrific, especially with Wicked Faire only a few short weeks away, and not to mention my 22nd birthday is coming up very quickly. Unfortunately, money is so tight right now that Richard and I decided not to trade birthday gifts (We're both Feb 5th, for those who didn't know) and that upsets me, because I already know that my mom is having a tough time finanically herself, and has promised me a hair dryer and a birthday cake. Hahah, so I was looking forward to the surprise from him... -Shrug- I can't afford giving him a gift either.
I am rather excited about Faire though, I have a new dress to wear, I'm trying desperately to find accessories... I guess I'll just be hitting up the vendors when I get there.. that's always fun, to just add to my outfit as I walk around. (All this considering I get some money for my birthday, :/ )
In other random news, I spend way too much time playing World of Warcraft recently. It seems everyone who used to be out and about, is now a hermit. And well, what else is there to do other than play WoW or Halo.. :/
It's a bit pathetic, how much time I spend in front of this computer, after living such a fast paced lifestyle. I miss it, in almost every way.I loved getting up, getting dressed immediately, finding my rather large circle of friends already out and getting into things.. haha, we'd spend all day together, until very late into the night, and then go home to do it all again the next day. Slowly that group of friends disbanded, more problems came up, people started not trusting each other.. Misunderstandings pulled the closest friends apart.. Money became a huge issue, and started making the fun less enjoyable.. :/ I don't see them so much now, one person here.. Another there... Behind the back of another.. It's rather terrible.
There are plenty of friends I miss, but it's a bit hard to get back into the swing of things now. We seem to just chose to stay home most of the time... Mostly, because the options aren't as appealing anymore, either that or we cant afford to drive around the block. I suppose I'd say we are in a bit of rut.. and have been for awhile.
I have been spending as much time as I can with Liane, and her son Salem. We miss Matt terribly, I still believe he is out to sea, and is going to come home any time... It's so awful, the world really fucked up, 'cause there is no reason he had to go when he did..Salem is absolutely beautiful though. I take pictures of him every time I see him.. He has almost identical features.. Really is the sweetest little guy, and I've been in love with him from the moment I held him when he was an hour old.. <3
The other LeeAnn, is due to have her son Ivan, on February 12th. I've tried to be as helpful as I can with her, while she has been back. But there is that rift of difficulties I mentioned from friends earlier. Her significant other, and baby's father, doesn't care for Richard and I, which makes things difficult. He is not there for her, in fact denied the child for a long time, and we, as well as other friends- have stepped in and cared for her while he refused. We don't seem to see much from it though... I'd like to be there when the baby is born, and I'd like to help as much as I can...
A lot of friends, or people we know are having/had babies. One of my good friends, and often photography models, Ray had a daughter named Alice right around the same time Salem was born.
In a way, it feels like friends are slowly leaving us behind. They are getting married, having children, moving away... I know people from my graduating class getting their bachelors degrees this spring.. And, I dont really regret not going into college.. But at the same time, I feel kind of left out. I know soon, they will all have good jobs.. and I'll still be struggling to pay my phone bill.. :/
Well I've rambled about a ton of things, apologize for the grammar mistakes and all, I just kind of rant when I write in this thing. One day I'll make a book about my entries. They are spanning like, 7 years or something intense like that? It'll be interesting to see how much I've grown and changed. I'd like to keep up with writing, because of that, but I don't usually see time or a good enough reason to write until I'm sitting alone one morning.. Oh well, better late than never I suppose.
<3
Lets go back to Christmas time.
I just want to let you all know, that working in a studio during Christmas is the worse idea ever. It is absolutely, and completely insane. There is no other way to really describe it. I'd arrive, for my 8 or 10 hour shift, be handed a camera, pointed in the direction of a camera room, and basically took a different family every 10 minutes. O_o a lot of the time, there was no break, I'd chug water or shovel crackers into my mouth whenever I could. The paychecks made it worth it, almost. The seasonal workers were morons. I couldn't believe how incompetent they were. We were very happy to see them go in January.
But since Christmas is over, so are the hours, and the good paychecks.. And I'm back to 8hrs-12hrs a week currently. Which is horrific, especially with Wicked Faire only a few short weeks away, and not to mention my 22nd birthday is coming up very quickly. Unfortunately, money is so tight right now that Richard and I decided not to trade birthday gifts (We're both Feb 5th, for those who didn't know) and that upsets me, because I already know that my mom is having a tough time finanically herself, and has promised me a hair dryer and a birthday cake. Hahah, so I was looking forward to the surprise from him... -Shrug- I can't afford giving him a gift either.
I am rather excited about Faire though, I have a new dress to wear, I'm trying desperately to find accessories... I guess I'll just be hitting up the vendors when I get there.. that's always fun, to just add to my outfit as I walk around. (All this considering I get some money for my birthday, :/ )
In other random news, I spend way too much time playing World of Warcraft recently. It seems everyone who used to be out and about, is now a hermit. And well, what else is there to do other than play WoW or Halo.. :/
It's a bit pathetic, how much time I spend in front of this computer, after living such a fast paced lifestyle. I miss it, in almost every way.I loved getting up, getting dressed immediately, finding my rather large circle of friends already out and getting into things.. haha, we'd spend all day together, until very late into the night, and then go home to do it all again the next day. Slowly that group of friends disbanded, more problems came up, people started not trusting each other.. Misunderstandings pulled the closest friends apart.. Money became a huge issue, and started making the fun less enjoyable.. :/ I don't see them so much now, one person here.. Another there... Behind the back of another.. It's rather terrible.
There are plenty of friends I miss, but it's a bit hard to get back into the swing of things now. We seem to just chose to stay home most of the time... Mostly, because the options aren't as appealing anymore, either that or we cant afford to drive around the block. I suppose I'd say we are in a bit of rut.. and have been for awhile.
I have been spending as much time as I can with Liane, and her son Salem. We miss Matt terribly, I still believe he is out to sea, and is going to come home any time... It's so awful, the world really fucked up, 'cause there is no reason he had to go when he did..Salem is absolutely beautiful though. I take pictures of him every time I see him.. He has almost identical features.. Really is the sweetest little guy, and I've been in love with him from the moment I held him when he was an hour old.. <3
The other LeeAnn, is due to have her son Ivan, on February 12th. I've tried to be as helpful as I can with her, while she has been back. But there is that rift of difficulties I mentioned from friends earlier. Her significant other, and baby's father, doesn't care for Richard and I, which makes things difficult. He is not there for her, in fact denied the child for a long time, and we, as well as other friends- have stepped in and cared for her while he refused. We don't seem to see much from it though... I'd like to be there when the baby is born, and I'd like to help as much as I can...
A lot of friends, or people we know are having/had babies. One of my good friends, and often photography models, Ray had a daughter named Alice right around the same time Salem was born.
In a way, it feels like friends are slowly leaving us behind. They are getting married, having children, moving away... I know people from my graduating class getting their bachelors degrees this spring.. And, I dont really regret not going into college.. But at the same time, I feel kind of left out. I know soon, they will all have good jobs.. and I'll still be struggling to pay my phone bill.. :/
Well I've rambled about a ton of things, apologize for the grammar mistakes and all, I just kind of rant when I write in this thing. One day I'll make a book about my entries. They are spanning like, 7 years or something intense like that? It'll be interesting to see how much I've grown and changed. I'd like to keep up with writing, because of that, but I don't usually see time or a good enough reason to write until I'm sitting alone one morning.. Oh well, better late than never I suppose.
<3