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So no one seems to be posting very often anymore, not that I post a lot either. So here goes an update: A great 3 day weekend. My 20th birthday, a great time celebrating with my family and then a surprise party awaited me when I returned to Gainesville. So much fun! I love my friends, and especially my room mates. They're amazing. :) Classes are going ok. Found out today that I can apply for my double major, and that some of the classes I'm taking now I really didn't have to take. Oh well. It makes for a kinda easy semester. I still need to find a job, but honestly, it's not one of my priorities right now. And I'm going to Intervarsity instead of Crusade this year. So far I love it!
Ok, and here it goes for random deep thoughts. Don't read anything in to this...I'd just like to put them down some where. I put way too much of my self worth in what other people think of me. I've become way too concerned with how I look and what people think of me. I constantly need to hear certain things from different people so I know I'm still their friend and included, etc. I've always been this way, but it's gotten a lot worse recently. Basing my self worth on what others think....not good. I get jealous very easily. Not sure where that came from, but it's definitely been happening. That makes life so much more complicated. Also, I've been putting way too much energy into pursuing guys, at least emotionally, when I know what I need to do is spend quality time with my Father and get things right with Him. Not until I do that can I have a good, healthy relationship with a guy. So much I need to fix, but these things never change quickly. Maybe I can report progress next time I update, since we know that won't be in the near future. :)
Hope everyone else is having a great start of the year!
Ok, and here it goes for random deep thoughts. Don't read anything in to this...I'd just like to put them down some where. I put way too much of my self worth in what other people think of me. I've become way too concerned with how I look and what people think of me. I constantly need to hear certain things from different people so I know I'm still their friend and included, etc. I've always been this way, but it's gotten a lot worse recently. Basing my self worth on what others think....not good. I get jealous very easily. Not sure where that came from, but it's definitely been happening. That makes life so much more complicated. Also, I've been putting way too much energy into pursuing guys, at least emotionally, when I know what I need to do is spend quality time with my Father and get things right with Him. Not until I do that can I have a good, healthy relationship with a guy. So much I need to fix, but these things never change quickly. Maybe I can report progress next time I update, since we know that won't be in the near future. :)
Hope everyone else is having a great start of the year!