Over Him - Chapter 4: Worse Than We Thought (Part 1)
Title: Over Him
Chapter: Worse Than We Thought (4/?)
Pairing: Logan/Carlos
Rating: K-ish
Summary: I keep telling myself that I'm over him, but he still makes my heart skip a beat.
Disclaimer: I own NO rights to BTR... unfortunately.
Author's Note: This story actually came about because kathrynew30 and I were disappointed at the lack of Cargan fics out there. Seriously, it feels like Carlos gets no love in fics. :( Anyway, I really wanted to remedy that but didn't have a plot until my former crush visited me at work and then I tweeted that saying in the summary. Thought about it and decided that it'd be a good starting point and here we are...
I'd like to thank kathrynew30 for telling me to "Stop doing important real life stuff and just write" and enjoying this story so far as well as stoodupforlove for being an amazing beta and sister. <3
Kendall didn't realize how much Logan had been suppressing these last two years. It seems like the tears will flow forever and he doesn't know what else he can do to comfort his friend. So he just holds him.
Not soon enough, Logan's sobs begin to subside and pretty soon the brunette is asleep in Kendall's arms, emotionally spent. Kendall gives him a gentle but tight hug before releasing the embrace, standing up, and placing a pillow under Logan's head as he allows his friend to sleep.
Kendall looks down at Logan and wonders how someone, especially a good friend, could have caused all this. He is pulled from his thoughts by the ringing of a telephone.
Kendall smiles. Leave it to Logan to STILL have a land line.
He lets the machine answer.
"Kendall?! Logan?! Someone answer!" James' panicking voice comes from the speaker.
Kendall rushes to pick up the receiver.
"James," Kendall says into the phone.
James doesn't hear him and keeps babbling asking for someone to pick up the phone.
"James… James… JAMES!"
That gets his attention but at the expense of Logan stirring. Kendal slips into the bedroom to prevent waking
the brunette.
"Oh my God, Kendall! Is everything okay?! I heard glass shattering, you saying you'll call back, and then… I've been trying to reach you for the past two hours."
"Two hours?! Hold on…"
Kendall pulls out his phone. Apparently, rather than just hanging up, he also turned off his phone.
"Kendall!" came James' voice again, "Logan?! What happened?"
Kendall explains how Logan overheard of the possibility of Carlos in Florida and also a glance over of Logan's breakdown.
"James, it's worse than we thought. Carlos really broke his heart."
"Do you know what happened that night?"
"Vaguely. Logan told me more last year when I visited, but still not everything… Wait, are you really in Florida?"
"Yeah…" James responds apologetically.
"Well, you've got some explaining to do, but that's not important right now. You need to find out from Carlos what really happened that night."
"Bu… bu… but…"
"No ‘buts’, James. I'm tired of this. I'm tired of seeing Logan so… heartbroken. I want things back the way they were."
James sighs, "Yeah, me too…" He takes a deep breath. "Alright, I'll talk to Carlos."
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James hangs up but remains on the park bench, not ready to confront Carlos.
Ever since that day, they'd been hanging out as twosomes, typically him and Carlos and Logan and Kendall. On rare occasions it was reversed, him and Logan and Kendall and Carlos, but NEVER just Carlos and Logan, as it happened so very often the first three years of high school. Also, other than school, it was only on special occasions, mainly birthdays, that they would hang out as a foursome.
Neither he nor Kendall ever got a full story of movie night from Carlos or Logan. They had both shown up to school acting 'normal' but refused to acknowledge each other. James and Kendall knew something had gone wrong. Since Kendall and Logan are practically brothers, he went to try and find out what happened. That left James to talk to Carlos, which was all fine because they had very similar personalities. Unfortunately no matter how hard they tried, neither could get a complete explanation.
James sighs, gets up, and makes his way back to the hotel room.
He enters the room and is greeted by Carlos sprawled out on the bed, flipping uninterestedly through the channels.
"Hey! Where ya been?"
"I took a walk. Had to clear my head."
"Did you ever get a hold of Kendall? Are we going to see him tomorrow?"
"Uhh… ummm… about that…"
"What, is he busy or something?" Carlos says in a sarcastically hurtful tone.
James is a little ticked off at that. "As a matter of fact, yes! He's helping Logan work through some things."
At the mention of his former classmate's name, Carlos' face goes white. This does not go unnoticed by James.
"Yeah. Logan! You know, the one who goes to school here. The one who used to be a really good friend. The one who was always there for you. The one who even… maybe… I don't know… loved you!" James gasps. That was a little too far, but it was too late.
"You knew?" Carlos asks, surprised, while pushing himself to sit on the edge of the bed.
James stares at Carlos, mouth agape.
"WHAT?!?!"
"You knew that Logan loved me?" Carlos responds as if in a trance.
"Yeah, he was pretty obvious about it since halfway through freshman year," James answers matter-of-factly.
Carlos turns his head to face James. His eyes are looking at him, but he isn't really seeing him. "Why didn't you say anything?"
"It wasn't our place to tell."
"So you knew that night was a date, then?"
"Yeah… Dude, what happened?"
"I said something… something I regret… something I knew I could never take back…" Carlos replies, tears starting to fill his eyes.
James takes a seat on the bed and places his arm around Carlos' shoulders.
"Look, Kendall and I want things to go back to the way they were. We want you and Logan to talk again. We want to have our brothers back, but we feel so helpless because we don't know what happened between the two of you."
Carlos' breath catches. It's never lain out in front of him this way and he finally realizes the consequences of what happened that night.
James sees this and asks, "Is it even fixable?"
"You tell me…"
Chapter: Worse Than We Thought (4/?)
Pairing: Logan/Carlos
Rating: K-ish
Summary: I keep telling myself that I'm over him, but he still makes my heart skip a beat.
Disclaimer: I own NO rights to BTR... unfortunately.
Author's Note: This story actually came about because kathrynew30 and I were disappointed at the lack of Cargan fics out there. Seriously, it feels like Carlos gets no love in fics. :( Anyway, I really wanted to remedy that but didn't have a plot until my former crush visited me at work and then I tweeted that saying in the summary. Thought about it and decided that it'd be a good starting point and here we are...
I'd like to thank kathrynew30 for telling me to "Stop doing important real life stuff and just write" and enjoying this story so far as well as stoodupforlove for being an amazing beta and sister. <3
Kendall didn't realize how much Logan had been suppressing these last two years. It seems like the tears will flow forever and he doesn't know what else he can do to comfort his friend. So he just holds him.
Not soon enough, Logan's sobs begin to subside and pretty soon the brunette is asleep in Kendall's arms, emotionally spent. Kendall gives him a gentle but tight hug before releasing the embrace, standing up, and placing a pillow under Logan's head as he allows his friend to sleep.
Kendall looks down at Logan and wonders how someone, especially a good friend, could have caused all this. He is pulled from his thoughts by the ringing of a telephone.
Kendall smiles. Leave it to Logan to STILL have a land line.
He lets the machine answer.
"Kendall?! Logan?! Someone answer!" James' panicking voice comes from the speaker.
Kendall rushes to pick up the receiver.
"James," Kendall says into the phone.
James doesn't hear him and keeps babbling asking for someone to pick up the phone.
"James… James… JAMES!"
That gets his attention but at the expense of Logan stirring. Kendal slips into the bedroom to prevent waking
the brunette.
"Oh my God, Kendall! Is everything okay?! I heard glass shattering, you saying you'll call back, and then… I've been trying to reach you for the past two hours."
"Two hours?! Hold on…"
Kendall pulls out his phone. Apparently, rather than just hanging up, he also turned off his phone.
"Kendall!" came James' voice again, "Logan?! What happened?"
Kendall explains how Logan overheard of the possibility of Carlos in Florida and also a glance over of Logan's breakdown.
"James, it's worse than we thought. Carlos really broke his heart."
"Do you know what happened that night?"
"Vaguely. Logan told me more last year when I visited, but still not everything… Wait, are you really in Florida?"
"Yeah…" James responds apologetically.
"Well, you've got some explaining to do, but that's not important right now. You need to find out from Carlos what really happened that night."
"Bu… bu… but…"
"No ‘buts’, James. I'm tired of this. I'm tired of seeing Logan so… heartbroken. I want things back the way they were."
James sighs, "Yeah, me too…" He takes a deep breath. "Alright, I'll talk to Carlos."
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James hangs up but remains on the park bench, not ready to confront Carlos.
Ever since that day, they'd been hanging out as twosomes, typically him and Carlos and Logan and Kendall. On rare occasions it was reversed, him and Logan and Kendall and Carlos, but NEVER just Carlos and Logan, as it happened so very often the first three years of high school. Also, other than school, it was only on special occasions, mainly birthdays, that they would hang out as a foursome.
Neither he nor Kendall ever got a full story of movie night from Carlos or Logan. They had both shown up to school acting 'normal' but refused to acknowledge each other. James and Kendall knew something had gone wrong. Since Kendall and Logan are practically brothers, he went to try and find out what happened. That left James to talk to Carlos, which was all fine because they had very similar personalities. Unfortunately no matter how hard they tried, neither could get a complete explanation.
James sighs, gets up, and makes his way back to the hotel room.
He enters the room and is greeted by Carlos sprawled out on the bed, flipping uninterestedly through the channels.
"Hey! Where ya been?"
"I took a walk. Had to clear my head."
"Did you ever get a hold of Kendall? Are we going to see him tomorrow?"
"Uhh… ummm… about that…"
"What, is he busy or something?" Carlos says in a sarcastically hurtful tone.
James is a little ticked off at that. "As a matter of fact, yes! He's helping Logan work through some things."
At the mention of his former classmate's name, Carlos' face goes white. This does not go unnoticed by James.
"Yeah. Logan! You know, the one who goes to school here. The one who used to be a really good friend. The one who was always there for you. The one who even… maybe… I don't know… loved you!" James gasps. That was a little too far, but it was too late.
"You knew?" Carlos asks, surprised, while pushing himself to sit on the edge of the bed.
James stares at Carlos, mouth agape.
"WHAT?!?!"
"You knew that Logan loved me?" Carlos responds as if in a trance.
"Yeah, he was pretty obvious about it since halfway through freshman year," James answers matter-of-factly.
Carlos turns his head to face James. His eyes are looking at him, but he isn't really seeing him. "Why didn't you say anything?"
"It wasn't our place to tell."
"So you knew that night was a date, then?"
"Yeah… Dude, what happened?"
"I said something… something I regret… something I knew I could never take back…" Carlos replies, tears starting to fill his eyes.
James takes a seat on the bed and places his arm around Carlos' shoulders.
"Look, Kendall and I want things to go back to the way they were. We want you and Logan to talk again. We want to have our brothers back, but we feel so helpless because we don't know what happened between the two of you."
Carlos' breath catches. It's never lain out in front of him this way and he finally realizes the consequences of what happened that night.
James sees this and asks, "Is it even fixable?"
"You tell me…"