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So here I am.
Rose Towers.
I thought I'd have help moving from people who promised a while back but when it came right down to it, I'm moving all my shit by myself.
Dad said that my mom told him that I had all these guys coming to help me move. He asked me where they are. I had nothing to say.
[sigh]
"So who do you really have you can count on, Crystal?"
Sigh.
I had so many wishes for a happy birthday. And I should've been happy. If I hadn't had to work, it would've been nice. If I had gotten to see some friends, that would've been nice. If I hadn't been alone in my room watching Food Network that night, it would've been nice.
Would if be selfish to say I wasn't happy?
It was great that mom made my favorite foods and bought me a tiny delicious cake. It was great that Jodi gave me some things that I really wanted. But I'd hoped for more.. I don't know, alcohol? heh.
I guess I'm just tired of being where I don't want to be, tired of doing what I don't want to do, tired of being what I don't want to be.
And just a birthday isn't going to change all that.
Fin.
Rose Towers.
I thought I'd have help moving from people who promised a while back but when it came right down to it, I'm moving all my shit by myself.
Dad said that my mom told him that I had all these guys coming to help me move. He asked me where they are. I had nothing to say.
[sigh]
"So who do you really have you can count on, Crystal?"
Sigh.
I had so many wishes for a happy birthday. And I should've been happy. If I hadn't had to work, it would've been nice. If I had gotten to see some friends, that would've been nice. If I hadn't been alone in my room watching Food Network that night, it would've been nice.
Would if be selfish to say I wasn't happy?
It was great that mom made my favorite foods and bought me a tiny delicious cake. It was great that Jodi gave me some things that I really wanted. But I'd hoped for more.. I don't know, alcohol? heh.
I guess I'm just tired of being where I don't want to be, tired of doing what I don't want to do, tired of being what I don't want to be.
And just a birthday isn't going to change all that.
Fin.