This Year...
so yeah. this definitely needs to ends. way too much has happened. i'm not talking about just this school year, i am talking about the entire 2005 year. i mean, me of all people i should be eternally grateful of this year. but ya know, sometimes even with the greatest gift someone can get, i want this year to be over. i mean, i got my transplant which is fuckin awesome, yes, but with it came the rest of the school year and getting behind, then over the summer worrying everyday because i had so many problems that i thought:"is today the day i can lose my kidney?" and then being on the verge of tears or beating the crap out of someone for just saying hi on a daily basis because of it. then this year missing like the first month and 1/2 and getting behind because i had to have surgery and then getting so sick i had to go the hospital for a few days. besides that, all my friends are having trouble dealing with shit, one of our teachers died which didnt help anyone at all, and then friday a senior from last year died. i'm sorry for all you who dont want to see this or be reminded but i have to put down how i feel. it sucks so much. and then all year my dad bitching almost everyday about how i'm not doing well enough in school when he openly admits he showed up to the SAT's with hangover. i dont even listen anymore because it doesnt matter that you know, i only have about 100x more shit to deal with at this point in my life then he did when he was 18. i just, i dont know....this has been the greatest and yet the worst year i have ever had. i am thankful for so many things, yet i cant help but want this year to be over. more so then i have ever wanted anything to be over that i can remember.