Don't know what to do
I don't know what to do anymore. I just hope to God I finish my book, it's my ticket out of misery. Tim's been super depressed lately. He says if he can't get a good job or if things don't get better around here he's going to move out of state, and I will be going with him.
I really don't want to go back to school, but I can't get stuck working a shitty low paying job the rest of my life either.
It's funny how other people decisions dictate your life. If my parents weren't so fucking paranoid about what 'could' happen to me if I went to school out of state I would probably be out of a college with a useful degree working on horror moves, but no! Their feelings were more important than my future.
I've been depressed about everything lately. I wish things were the way before I went to college, when I still hung out with all my friends, when I was still naive, when I thought there was still hope for a good future. There's nothing but pain and misery in the adult world, and I hate it! Now I finally get the whole point of "Catcher in the Rye." But at least Holden Caulfield knew what was in store for him, he knew! I fucking read it and I was to stupid to see... or maybe I didn't want to.
I fucking hate this place. I want to go far far away and never ever look back. I want another chance to do something positive with my life. I want to help people who deserve to be helped and punish those who feed of the helpless.
I really don't want to go back to school, but I can't get stuck working a shitty low paying job the rest of my life either.
It's funny how other people decisions dictate your life. If my parents weren't so fucking paranoid about what 'could' happen to me if I went to school out of state I would probably be out of a college with a useful degree working on horror moves, but no! Their feelings were more important than my future.
I've been depressed about everything lately. I wish things were the way before I went to college, when I still hung out with all my friends, when I was still naive, when I thought there was still hope for a good future. There's nothing but pain and misery in the adult world, and I hate it! Now I finally get the whole point of "Catcher in the Rye." But at least Holden Caulfield knew what was in store for him, he knew! I fucking read it and I was to stupid to see... or maybe I didn't want to.
I fucking hate this place. I want to go far far away and never ever look back. I want another chance to do something positive with my life. I want to help people who deserve to be helped and punish those who feed of the helpless.