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So i'm sitting here at the college i will be attending in less than 3 months and im wondering to myself "what the fuck am i doing here?"
i really dont know. i love it up here, but im so confused on everything right now. i dont know what i want to do, dont know who ill be. im afraid college is going to change the person i have become. im afraid college is going to lose my friends i have now. i like life as it is. i dont want anyone moving away. i dont know whats going on but im scared of the future. im afraid ill start liking 'rap' and 'hip hop' (oh what a terrible day that will me]]be). but i know once i move up here everything will change. today we had to say our name and our favorite highschool memory and thats when it hit me- highschool is over. as i said my thing (choir) i kinda got teary-eyed because i dont want it to be. i liked everything the way it was. i keep thinking that it wont ever be that way again and i get sad again. it really sucks. i loved every part of highschool. blah blah blah. goddamn college. i might take a year off of school and live in austria, but thats a whole different situation.
peace, friends.