Cause I've been gone for a long time, waiting on the sidelines, hoping for a chance to play.
So, I know it's been a while.
I have actually spent the last week or so reading through this entire journal and everything that's happened in my life. It's funny because a lot of it I had forgotten about til I read about it...but reading all of it has also helped me come to a decision.
I haven't updated this thing since last December. For a lot of reasons. I can't write with the same honesty I used to...maybe because as we grow older, our need for privacy and personal thoughts becomes much more...necessary. I used to keep a written journal, but that's been updated even less than this thing, mostly because I don't have the stamina to write for long periods of time anymore...my hand just cramps up.
So that said, I've been in kind of a funk as to what to do with this journal. I don't want to get rid of it, because it's the one record of the past 7 or so years of my life...that chronicles everything at one point or another. And in addition to that it's the only thing I've ever stuck with for such a long period of time. That said, I don't have the heart to delete it. But I don't want to write in it anymore knowing that people can read what I'm saying.
Therefore, I've decided that everything that has been written in this journal thus far shall remain friends only. And that which was made public shall remain that way as well. BUT everything written from now on (besides this entry) will be made private and shall be for my viewing only. This is to make myself more comfortable but also to be able to write the way I used to and to get everything out of my crazy head.
So...to everyone that has read this and commented through out the years, to whoever is reading this right now...thank you. For listening to my stupid ramblings and rants and problems, and everything else I have written here in the past 7 years. You've all helped me through so much, even in the smallest ways, and for that I will always be grateful. I wish you all the best :) And those of you that still wish to keep in touch can always find me on facebook, or on my tumblr (http://gogostopnogo.tumblr.com/).
I can't say if things will stay like this forever, but this is what I need RIGHT NOW.
Goodbye, my friends. Keep on truckin' and never let the man bring you down<3
- Steph.
I have actually spent the last week or so reading through this entire journal and everything that's happened in my life. It's funny because a lot of it I had forgotten about til I read about it...but reading all of it has also helped me come to a decision.
I haven't updated this thing since last December. For a lot of reasons. I can't write with the same honesty I used to...maybe because as we grow older, our need for privacy and personal thoughts becomes much more...necessary. I used to keep a written journal, but that's been updated even less than this thing, mostly because I don't have the stamina to write for long periods of time anymore...my hand just cramps up.
So that said, I've been in kind of a funk as to what to do with this journal. I don't want to get rid of it, because it's the one record of the past 7 or so years of my life...that chronicles everything at one point or another. And in addition to that it's the only thing I've ever stuck with for such a long period of time. That said, I don't have the heart to delete it. But I don't want to write in it anymore knowing that people can read what I'm saying.
Therefore, I've decided that everything that has been written in this journal thus far shall remain friends only. And that which was made public shall remain that way as well. BUT everything written from now on (besides this entry) will be made private and shall be for my viewing only. This is to make myself more comfortable but also to be able to write the way I used to and to get everything out of my crazy head.
So...to everyone that has read this and commented through out the years, to whoever is reading this right now...thank you. For listening to my stupid ramblings and rants and problems, and everything else I have written here in the past 7 years. You've all helped me through so much, even in the smallest ways, and for that I will always be grateful. I wish you all the best :) And those of you that still wish to keep in touch can always find me on facebook, or on my tumblr (http://gogostopnogo.tumblr.com/).
I can't say if things will stay like this forever, but this is what I need RIGHT NOW.
Goodbye, my friends. Keep on truckin' and never let the man bring you down<3
- Steph.