&& what it all comes down to, is that i havent got it all figured out just yet..
yeah..soo...basically..im pretty happy.
im happy with myself as a person..im happy with my school..im happy with my friends..im happy with my work..im just happy with life in general.
me and abby had a discussion the other day about trying to make everyone happy at all times...and how we've tried so hard to make EVERYONE happy in the past..and how we've tried to get alone with everyone..and how we just cant take it anymore..we just need to start making ourselves happy. and basically, screw everyone else. cause isnt that what it comes down to in the end..youre born alone..and you die alone..with yourself..and you have to be able to live with the choices you've made in your life..no regrets..basically..hmm..i like that word tonight..haha...soo..yeah.
hah..i love it when im talking..or thinking about something..and i just completely get distracted and forget what im talking about..and im like..'yeah....what??'...hahahaha.
wait, first..i have to comment on kelseys post..i have to say..i understand how she feels ignored or something..and i know that i havent really been a good friend to you lately..(you being kelsey..just in case anyones feeling a little bit durrrr tonight)..anyways..i know i havent been a great friend..but i just..i dunno..i feel like we dont have that much in common anymore..i guess were kind of growing apart or something? you know?..i wont say its my fault..and i definitly wont say its your fault, cause its totally not! ...i just..i dunno..i dont really have any explanation for it....and maybe it will just totally pass...(it probably will..it usually does..) ..it seems like this happens every so often..huh? i miss hanging out with you..but..i dont feel like we have anything to do..hah..remember that time when i was at your house and i dont remember how it started but..we ended up like..soaking each other with a random squirt bottle..i remember ramen noodles that night for some reason too...hahahaha.
as for Jessie, wow..im sorry ive been so mean to you lately..i dont have an actual reason for it..i think its just because our personalities clash so much..ya know?..but i just feel like i owe you an apology..and yes..ive been talking about you behind your back..(mostly to kelsey..who put it in her entry..but refused to name my name..hah)..do i realize its childish? of course!! but when im doing it..i just dont care...hah..i cant really help it...its only after i do it..and think about it..that i do feel kinda bad..so i apologize..you never did anything to me..and im sorry i'm such a jerk...and im sorry i cant seem to get along with you very well anymore..remember when we actually used to hang out and play mario party and get along?? hah..those were the days..:]
anyways..now that we have all that out and in the open..and hopefully noone wants to shoot me in the face...
i found the cutest homecoming dress today!!! i love ittt!!! haha..im so beyond exciteddddd. :]]]
also..just so everyone knows..i work tomorrow friday saturday(double) and sunday(double)..so...hopefully i make a LOT of $$$$...cause i loove it...haha.
im pretty excited to be in yearbook..cause..i love it..and i love it. haha. i cant believe we graduate this year! im soo freaking excited to start my life and go to college and move out!! :]] ahh..i love itttt.
oh crap, i need to register for my ACT..i should do that..like..now...or tomorrow..no..god, im such a procrastinator! hah..ohhh welllll.
im happy with myself as a person..im happy with my school..im happy with my friends..im happy with my work..im just happy with life in general.
me and abby had a discussion the other day about trying to make everyone happy at all times...and how we've tried so hard to make EVERYONE happy in the past..and how we've tried to get alone with everyone..and how we just cant take it anymore..we just need to start making ourselves happy. and basically, screw everyone else. cause isnt that what it comes down to in the end..youre born alone..and you die alone..with yourself..and you have to be able to live with the choices you've made in your life..no regrets..basically..hmm..i like that word tonight..haha...soo..yeah.
hah..i love it when im talking..or thinking about something..and i just completely get distracted and forget what im talking about..and im like..'yeah....what??'...hahahaha.
wait, first..i have to comment on kelseys post..i have to say..i understand how she feels ignored or something..and i know that i havent really been a good friend to you lately..(you being kelsey..just in case anyones feeling a little bit durrrr tonight)..anyways..i know i havent been a great friend..but i just..i dunno..i feel like we dont have that much in common anymore..i guess were kind of growing apart or something? you know?..i wont say its my fault..and i definitly wont say its your fault, cause its totally not! ...i just..i dunno..i dont really have any explanation for it....and maybe it will just totally pass...(it probably will..it usually does..) ..it seems like this happens every so often..huh? i miss hanging out with you..but..i dont feel like we have anything to do..hah..remember that time when i was at your house and i dont remember how it started but..we ended up like..soaking each other with a random squirt bottle..i remember ramen noodles that night for some reason too...hahahaha.
as for Jessie, wow..im sorry ive been so mean to you lately..i dont have an actual reason for it..i think its just because our personalities clash so much..ya know?..but i just feel like i owe you an apology..and yes..ive been talking about you behind your back..(mostly to kelsey..who put it in her entry..but refused to name my name..hah)..do i realize its childish? of course!! but when im doing it..i just dont care...hah..i cant really help it...its only after i do it..and think about it..that i do feel kinda bad..so i apologize..you never did anything to me..and im sorry i'm such a jerk...and im sorry i cant seem to get along with you very well anymore..remember when we actually used to hang out and play mario party and get along?? hah..those were the days..:]
anyways..now that we have all that out and in the open..and hopefully noone wants to shoot me in the face...
i found the cutest homecoming dress today!!! i love ittt!!! haha..im so beyond exciteddddd. :]]]
also..just so everyone knows..i work tomorrow friday saturday(double) and sunday(double)..so...hopefully i make a LOT of $$$$...cause i loove it...haha.
im pretty excited to be in yearbook..cause..i love it..and i love it. haha. i cant believe we graduate this year! im soo freaking excited to start my life and go to college and move out!! :]] ahh..i love itttt.
oh crap, i need to register for my ACT..i should do that..like..now...or tomorrow..no..god, im such a procrastinator! hah..ohhh welllll.