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i dont understand i really dont what the hell is my problem why am i not good enough why where has my life gone where is it going why must i screw everything up...everything nothing goes right nothing goes ok i have a good day during the end i screw it up what ths fuck what is wrong with me i just want ashley to love me like she used to but why why doesnt she....because i screwed up i want to make things right i am getting another chance what am i doing im screwing it up i get so frustrated that is all i want but all we do is fight when we do have a good day its great im so happy but you can probably figure im going to screw somthing up and start another fight why why cant we just be happy love lots of love instead...nothing where has my heart gone im gtrying to give you all that i can i want to give you more then i have my heart...its in your hand. what do you do with it put it somewhere safe? or just drop it i dont know but it feels like the hand is starting to tilt can i straighten it im not sure time will tell i want to stop hurting i want to be ok i want us to be ok i want us to spend out lives together where did my mind go wrong my heart knew where it wanted to be all along but my mind denied it now there working together but getting nowhere they know where they want to be what they want but are getting nothing in return is my heart not big enough am i not smart enough is my love not good enough i wish i knew so i could change it i just want you happy