happiness isnt a dream anymore

[ins4n3kind4s4n3]

Sometimes things take you unexpected, to suddenly realize that something you cared about doesn't really matter anymore, and then to move on to something more important. Someone you trust. It makes me smile to know that I can do it. That I won't be stuck on it... the elusive it that has haunted me for years. I've changed. I know I have. I'm easier to please. I don't freak out about everything. I don't worry about what I can't control. I don't stress... as much. I like myself more. I love myself more... I don't want to crawl into a hole and be away from the rest of the world anymore. Bursting into the reality that sleeping isn't the only place that I can be comfortable, it's so reassuring. I'm not that ugly person anymore. When I left mars I didn't feel, I just was. I was a sleeping ball of nothing that wanted nothing and experienced nothing. I did extreme things just to do them. I did stupid things just make the choice to do something with my life that I wasn't really supposed to do.

Just to make my point clear... I'm so happy!