Will never belong
Title: Will Never Belong
Pairing: JaeChunSu
Genre: Angst, smut?
Summary: Junsu, Jaejoong and Yoochun are in a relationship but Jaejoong knows he doesn't belong.
Warning: 3some, and unbeta-ed ;___;
Jaejoong sighed as he looked across the room to where his two lovers who were caught up in a lip lock with each other. The blonde could join if he wanted but he preferred to have his alone time with each of his lovers.
It hadn’t always been like this. Originally it was just him and Yoochun, for two years. But Jaejoong could see the way his lover looked at the red head. And then somehow they ended up like this.
Even though he too had developed feelings for Junsu, he would still feel the jealousy boil up inside of him. It was even doubled now, seeing as he was jealous of Yoochun as well as Junsu.
He knew there was no way out now, without losing both of the people he loved. In his heart he knew Junsu and Yoochun loved each other more than either of them loved him. He knew that it would all end soon. He knew he couldn’t keep doing this to himself, to them. He knew, but he couldn’t make it stop.
He sighed again and stood up to walk over to his lovers. They smiled up at him, and Yoochun patted his lap, silently asking the blonde to sit.
Jaejoong did and leaned into kiss the brunette. The younger didn’t waste any time, as he moved his lips faster against the blondes.
Junsu leaned in and added his tongue into the kiss making the other two moan in surprise. Yoochun wrapped his arm around the red head’s waist and cupped his perfectly shaped ass.
Junsu smiled into the kiss and pulled away. He let his hands wander around Jaejoong’s body before lifting the shirt over the blonde’s head. Junsu let his hands roam the newly exposed skin, allowing his fingers to play with the pert nipples, earning a loud moan.
Jaejoong let the other two do all the work, and before he knew it all three of them were naked, while Junsu and Yoochun were exploring each other’s mouth. Jaejoong just laid and watched. “This will be the last time.” He thought to himself.
“Ready Jae?” He heard the baritone ask him, and nodded in response. The blonde felt a tongue prodding his entrance, and was soon followed by fingers. He moaned from the feeling of pain mixed with the pleasure. The pleasure over came any pain that was ever there, and he began to moan.
He heard Yoochun grunt, and looked to see Junsu fingering him and preparing him. He felt his heart shatter and it just confirmed what he already knew. Yoochun never let any one top him, ever.
Yoochun pushed the tip of his cock inside of the blonde’s entrance, earning a groan from the other.
Jaejoong felt Yoochun pushed into him all the way and cried out. It hurt at first but as the baritone pulled out and push in slowly, he began to crave for more. He heard Yoochun cry out, and once more his already shattered heart, shattered into smaller pieces.
The blonde tried his best to keep the tears that were gathering in his eyes from falling. But when Yoochun leaned down and kissed him, he let them flow. ‘Why can’t you love me??’ he screamed in his head. He opened his eyes and saw Junsu thrusting into the brunette at the same pace that Yoochun was thrusting into him.
He moaned as his sweet spot was pounded into. “More. Yoochun .Fuck go faster dammit!” he screamed out. But in reality he didn’t want it to all end, he want this last moment to last.
Yoochun grunted as his come filled Jaejoong, he felt Junsu slip out of him and he too pulled out of the blonde, letting the red head take his place fucking Jaejoong.
Jaejoong moaned as the younger thrust into him harder and faster, both desperate for relief. “Hng..” Junsu leaned down to kiss him and Jaejoong let a few more tears fall, he felt a hand around his aching cock and realized Yoochun was stroking him.
“Fuck that’s hot.” Junsu moaned, as he sped up.
Jaejoong screamed out a mix between Yoochun and Junsu’s name as he came and covered his stomach and the brunette’s hand. Junsu’s thrust became more frantic until he finally spilled his seed and collapsed.
They both grunted as he pulled out. Yoochun cuddled up to Jaejoong with Junsu behind him. Jaejoong sighed once more, and let another tear fall. “This is it.”
“What’s wrong, Jae?” Yoochun asked as he wiped away the tear from the other’s face, but it was pointless as more tears began to fall. The blonde let out a few choked sobs, and Junsu was now next to him holding on to him as well.
“Tell us what’s wrong Hyung…” Junsu voice was full of concern.
“I can’t do this anymore.” Jaejoong said as he tried to pull away from all the limbs he was tangled in. When he finally escaped he made a run for the door, but Yoochun beat him to it.
“What do you mean?”
“You love Junsu, and Junsu loves you. There isn’t room for me anymore.” Jaejoong said and he felt like a black hole had replaced his heart.
“Jaejoong… you know that’s not true.” Yoochun tried as he stood behind the blonde and wrapped his arms around his shoulders.
“I know it’s true. And I can’t take this anymore, Yoochun! Let me go!” He broke into more sobs and fell to floor.
He felt arms wrap around him again, this time it was Junsu. “Hyung, we both love you. Don’t go.” A tear fell from the youngest eyes.
Jaejoong stood up, breaking free of any embrace.
“I love you guys, I really do.” He sighed and placed a quick peck on each of their lips.
“I’m Sorry.” The blonde grabbed his clothes and made his way to his own room, which he hadn’t slept in god knows how long.
He could hear Junsu and Yoochun pounding on his locked door, but he ignored it and placed himself on the bed, and cried until there was no more tears left. He cried until sleep over took his body.
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I wrote this in like 30 minutes >_>; and im not happy with it but, Just practicing hehe, hopefully one day I will improve ;__;
Pairing: JaeChunSu
Genre: Angst, smut?
Summary: Junsu, Jaejoong and Yoochun are in a relationship but Jaejoong knows he doesn't belong.
Warning: 3some, and unbeta-ed ;___;
Jaejoong sighed as he looked across the room to where his two lovers who were caught up in a lip lock with each other. The blonde could join if he wanted but he preferred to have his alone time with each of his lovers.
It hadn’t always been like this. Originally it was just him and Yoochun, for two years. But Jaejoong could see the way his lover looked at the red head. And then somehow they ended up like this.
Even though he too had developed feelings for Junsu, he would still feel the jealousy boil up inside of him. It was even doubled now, seeing as he was jealous of Yoochun as well as Junsu.
He knew there was no way out now, without losing both of the people he loved. In his heart he knew Junsu and Yoochun loved each other more than either of them loved him. He knew that it would all end soon. He knew he couldn’t keep doing this to himself, to them. He knew, but he couldn’t make it stop.
He sighed again and stood up to walk over to his lovers. They smiled up at him, and Yoochun patted his lap, silently asking the blonde to sit.
Jaejoong did and leaned into kiss the brunette. The younger didn’t waste any time, as he moved his lips faster against the blondes.
Junsu leaned in and added his tongue into the kiss making the other two moan in surprise. Yoochun wrapped his arm around the red head’s waist and cupped his perfectly shaped ass.
Junsu smiled into the kiss and pulled away. He let his hands wander around Jaejoong’s body before lifting the shirt over the blonde’s head. Junsu let his hands roam the newly exposed skin, allowing his fingers to play with the pert nipples, earning a loud moan.
Jaejoong let the other two do all the work, and before he knew it all three of them were naked, while Junsu and Yoochun were exploring each other’s mouth. Jaejoong just laid and watched. “This will be the last time.” He thought to himself.
“Ready Jae?” He heard the baritone ask him, and nodded in response. The blonde felt a tongue prodding his entrance, and was soon followed by fingers. He moaned from the feeling of pain mixed with the pleasure. The pleasure over came any pain that was ever there, and he began to moan.
He heard Yoochun grunt, and looked to see Junsu fingering him and preparing him. He felt his heart shatter and it just confirmed what he already knew. Yoochun never let any one top him, ever.
Yoochun pushed the tip of his cock inside of the blonde’s entrance, earning a groan from the other.
Jaejoong felt Yoochun pushed into him all the way and cried out. It hurt at first but as the baritone pulled out and push in slowly, he began to crave for more. He heard Yoochun cry out, and once more his already shattered heart, shattered into smaller pieces.
The blonde tried his best to keep the tears that were gathering in his eyes from falling. But when Yoochun leaned down and kissed him, he let them flow. ‘Why can’t you love me??’ he screamed in his head. He opened his eyes and saw Junsu thrusting into the brunette at the same pace that Yoochun was thrusting into him.
He moaned as his sweet spot was pounded into. “More. Yoochun .Fuck go faster dammit!” he screamed out. But in reality he didn’t want it to all end, he want this last moment to last.
Yoochun grunted as his come filled Jaejoong, he felt Junsu slip out of him and he too pulled out of the blonde, letting the red head take his place fucking Jaejoong.
Jaejoong moaned as the younger thrust into him harder and faster, both desperate for relief. “Hng..” Junsu leaned down to kiss him and Jaejoong let a few more tears fall, he felt a hand around his aching cock and realized Yoochun was stroking him.
“Fuck that’s hot.” Junsu moaned, as he sped up.
Jaejoong screamed out a mix between Yoochun and Junsu’s name as he came and covered his stomach and the brunette’s hand. Junsu’s thrust became more frantic until he finally spilled his seed and collapsed.
They both grunted as he pulled out. Yoochun cuddled up to Jaejoong with Junsu behind him. Jaejoong sighed once more, and let another tear fall. “This is it.”
“What’s wrong, Jae?” Yoochun asked as he wiped away the tear from the other’s face, but it was pointless as more tears began to fall. The blonde let out a few choked sobs, and Junsu was now next to him holding on to him as well.
“Tell us what’s wrong Hyung…” Junsu voice was full of concern.
“I can’t do this anymore.” Jaejoong said as he tried to pull away from all the limbs he was tangled in. When he finally escaped he made a run for the door, but Yoochun beat him to it.
“What do you mean?”
“You love Junsu, and Junsu loves you. There isn’t room for me anymore.” Jaejoong said and he felt like a black hole had replaced his heart.
“Jaejoong… you know that’s not true.” Yoochun tried as he stood behind the blonde and wrapped his arms around his shoulders.
“I know it’s true. And I can’t take this anymore, Yoochun! Let me go!” He broke into more sobs and fell to floor.
He felt arms wrap around him again, this time it was Junsu. “Hyung, we both love you. Don’t go.” A tear fell from the youngest eyes.
Jaejoong stood up, breaking free of any embrace.
“I love you guys, I really do.” He sighed and placed a quick peck on each of their lips.
“I’m Sorry.” The blonde grabbed his clothes and made his way to his own room, which he hadn’t slept in god knows how long.
He could hear Junsu and Yoochun pounding on his locked door, but he ignored it and placed himself on the bed, and cried until there was no more tears left. He cried until sleep over took his body.
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I wrote this in like 30 minutes >_>; and im not happy with it but, Just practicing hehe, hopefully one day I will improve ;__;