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Update on girl situation... I have a girlfriend. It is the same girl I mentioned in my last entry. Yeah, I can't stay away from this one. I guess my blood isn't as cold as I thought. I think my heart was jump-started with an innocent kiss and hug. She has enough heart for the both of us anyway. I am so grateful to have her. I tried to warn her off, but shes determined. She seems more than willing to simply pick up every piece of my metaphorically shattered heart and put it back together. I have old feelings coming back that I thought long gone. I also have new feelings that are refreshing and invigorating.
I have been very honest and blunt with her. I have also been open about how I feel (yes, I am one of those few guys that has the ability to do that) about everything and how pessimistic I can be in regards to relationships, but she seems to be reshaping my view on that everyday. Not because shes trying to change me, She's showing me how much a person can care for another without guarantee of anything in return.
I am amazed by her... I sometimes wonder if im infatuated with her soul along with her mind and body. A lot of people act out who they want to be, not her. This girl is so honest and trusting. I have done nothing to earn her trust and yet she trusts me as though I am incapable of doing any wrong to her. How does a heart suffer and still do that?
It has been a lovely vacation from reality, but I am starting to pay more attention to my friends again. I don't want any disconnect from them. I think all of them like or will like this one. Things are going to get crammed up soon. School is coming, work will continue, and time management of friends and girlfriend.
I have one friend I feel I am drifting away from. He is in complete disconnect from the world I think. I don't know, I hope he wakes up and decides to actually do something other than work and computers. Other than that all of my other friends have been cool and I have had a lot of fun with them this summer from Florida to North West Indiana. I am certain we still have a few good times left before summer is over. I wish Diana was happier than she has been lately. That is one of the few anchors weighing heavy on my mind, but there is little I can do except stick around and be around to talk to.
Overall this summer has been pretty darn awesome! Well I think this has been a good update entry... I am going to see the tall ships, six flags, and spend a day or two in chicago. This will all take place next month before school starts - best part is I have a girlfriend to do it all with :) I'll have to post pictures somewhere...
I have been very honest and blunt with her. I have also been open about how I feel (yes, I am one of those few guys that has the ability to do that) about everything and how pessimistic I can be in regards to relationships, but she seems to be reshaping my view on that everyday. Not because shes trying to change me, She's showing me how much a person can care for another without guarantee of anything in return.
I am amazed by her... I sometimes wonder if im infatuated with her soul along with her mind and body. A lot of people act out who they want to be, not her. This girl is so honest and trusting. I have done nothing to earn her trust and yet she trusts me as though I am incapable of doing any wrong to her. How does a heart suffer and still do that?
It has been a lovely vacation from reality, but I am starting to pay more attention to my friends again. I don't want any disconnect from them. I think all of them like or will like this one. Things are going to get crammed up soon. School is coming, work will continue, and time management of friends and girlfriend.
I have one friend I feel I am drifting away from. He is in complete disconnect from the world I think. I don't know, I hope he wakes up and decides to actually do something other than work and computers. Other than that all of my other friends have been cool and I have had a lot of fun with them this summer from Florida to North West Indiana. I am certain we still have a few good times left before summer is over. I wish Diana was happier than she has been lately. That is one of the few anchors weighing heavy on my mind, but there is little I can do except stick around and be around to talk to.
Overall this summer has been pretty darn awesome! Well I think this has been a good update entry... I am going to see the tall ships, six flags, and spend a day or two in chicago. This will all take place next month before school starts - best part is I have a girlfriend to do it all with :) I'll have to post pictures somewhere...