i give up
just about 10 minutes before i saw your number on the caller ID i was getting extremely excited about something new, but then something just snapped. after i got off the phone, i was thinking, "hmm...maybe i don't need a boyfriend." but i'm not giving into that. i have worked too hard to try to move past this and i am sure as hell not turning back now. i'm not crying because i miss it. i'm crying because i might lose what i've worked so hard for...independence. i can't depend on you for anything anymore, so that means you can't depend on me. i wonder if what i said tonight was a big mistake. i hope not. i don't think it was. i didn't do it to be mean...i did it for your own good and mine. i can only hope that you will take it to heart and you will understand why i have to do this. don't call, don't stop by, and don't flirt with me anymore. if you do, i'm not so sure i can keep it a secret anymore. i mean, why should i protect you after all of this crap?
i'm trying to be very vague, but i don't think it's working. i have felt like i was living two lives. i can't do that to myself anymore. i feel like some psychotic, obsessive compulsive, suicidal, desparate housewife. does that drop any hints? probably not.
nobody is going to know what i'm talking about. i'm not so sure i want to tell anybody-especially you.
i'm trying to be very vague, but i don't think it's working. i have felt like i was living two lives. i can't do that to myself anymore. i feel like some psychotic, obsessive compulsive, suicidal, desparate housewife. does that drop any hints? probably not.
nobody is going to know what i'm talking about. i'm not so sure i want to tell anybody-especially you.