guh! will the madness ever end!
So............ Today and yesterday weren't very fun days for me. Yesterday I went over to Brandon's house with every thought that we were going to break up because of what had happened the day before, but I got there and he says that he doesn't want to break up. That surprised the hell out of me let me tell you! I wasn't really sure how to react. I asked him why later and he said because I love you. He also said lets not decide anything till after the 8th since its my birthday and our one year. So its supposed to be a happy day and he doesn't want to ruin it for me. Which makes me happy. What doesn't make me happy is the fact that I don't know what is going to happen after that day. Johnny suggested we should take a break. I'm not sure about that one. If we are going to break it would just be from not seeing eachother or talking to eachother for a week. If he wants a full lets pretend we aren't boyfriend and girlfriend I couldn't do it. I couldn't handle that on my part. I'm extremely worried that if we do break that he won't want me back and then we would have just wasted a week of worrying. If he is leaning towards breaking up I'd rather just do it cause this hanging there thing can't work for me. anyway, I don't know what to do or how to react. I'm upset, but then again I am happy that we are finally trying to fix this because I love him so much and I never want to lose him. Then again I know that if we truly weren't meant to be then there is nothing that we can do to stop it and I'll have to come to terms with that when it happens. Any advice from anyone would be most helpful.