Depression might be setting in
The shit that i have been through this last week and that just RANDOMLY STARTED for no reason at all has been so tiring i honestly just want to sleep all day and just forget about everything. Its so frustrating have to deal with my friends when they are telling that im over reacting, taking it too seriously and not being mature enough and all this bull shit. When is it right for someone that i have never done anything to think its okay to put me down so badly about everything in my life even the things most important to me like roy and then make me cry for like days. I honestly dont think i am being unreasonable here... I refuse to be put in a situation where i will feel uncomfortable, out of place and possibly confronted in front of friends where i have no escape. I just absolutely HATE her. She treats everyone she thinks that are below her like shit and im tired of being that person. She makes me feel ashamed about myself and Dr. Gary wants me to try and cut everything about her out of my life... which would mean opal and brittanie... im not ready to do that yet but i am willing to cut myself off until she learns what she did was amazingly wrong and bring herself to apologize which might take awhile considering its against everything she is about. Whatever its all fuked up as usual and im just going to have to accept more friends gone. Obviously its a theme the older you get the more you realize who real friends are. It makes me appreciate Jenny so much more. We dont see eachother everyday anymore and we arent doing the same things anymore but i know for a fact that if i keep in contact with her that we will be friends forever. I would love to know that would for sure happen with Brittanie and OPal.... but recently i think im just reaching and hoping for something that might be too unrealistic.