Inside i hope you know im dieing
I wish i could wake up and know somethings going to change, and nothing ever going to be the same again.
But i wake up knowing everything is not going to change . Nothing ever changes, at least not when it deals with me . My life is only a routine i preform over and over and over again . Maybe something would be different if i was a certain kind of person, but im not any kind of person. i always land right in the middle of everything and nothing . Im just enough for people to realize i exist and just below the radar of being known as something or someone . Is there ever going to be a time where my dreams come true. Instead of being told its just not my turn, Just stop looking and it will find you. I want to know its going to work out . im tired of hoping. I know its up to me to change this all . To make a difference in my life . But i cant make a decision to save my life. I want to move so bad . but i cant take that step to leaving my mom and brothers . I hate myself
But i wake up knowing everything is not going to change . Nothing ever changes, at least not when it deals with me . My life is only a routine i preform over and over and over again . Maybe something would be different if i was a certain kind of person, but im not any kind of person. i always land right in the middle of everything and nothing . Im just enough for people to realize i exist and just below the radar of being known as something or someone . Is there ever going to be a time where my dreams come true. Instead of being told its just not my turn, Just stop looking and it will find you. I want to know its going to work out . im tired of hoping. I know its up to me to change this all . To make a difference in my life . But i cant make a decision to save my life. I want to move so bad . but i cant take that step to leaving my mom and brothers . I hate myself