My Apology (One-shot)
Pairing- None
Rating- G
Character - Nichkhun, 2PM(mention)
Words- 858
Summary- My Apology was not for them....
A/N- This came to be after Nichkhun's tweet. I do not claim to know what is going through 2PM's head this is simply my interpretation as a fan. I posted it on my other site and just thought i would share it here as well. Hope you guys like it ^^
p.s. words at the start are from Rihanna's Question Existing. I do not own 2PM (sadly) just the story.
Entertaining is something I do for a living
It's not who I am, I'd like to think that I'm pretty normal,
I laugh, I get mad, I hurt, I think
Life sucks sometimes,
But when you're in the spotlight,
Everything seems good,
Sometimes I feel like I have it worse cause I have to always keep my guard up…
But sometimes I break down too…
It wasn’t my intention to cry. I was not looking for sympathy… I wasn’t expecting for you to forgive me. I just… I just really need it to get it off my chest.
“I’m sorry”
Such a simple phrase… yet it carries so much more meaning than the simple words can express.
“I’m sorry you guys had to suffer because of me”
It wasn’t for them I was apologizing. Not to the vouchers lurking in the shadows waiting for a chance to attack. I’m passed that now… pass trying to please them. Pass trying to get them to see that like them I’m a human being. Filled with faults and regrets, an imperfect human that somehow got lucky enough to be in the position I’m in today.
No.
My apology was for those beautiful people that no matter what, have stuck with me through thick and thin. For those that see me for who I am, that love me for what I do, for my angels that support me during the good times as well as the bad.
My apology was for Jang Wooyoung; not the playful guy he shows on stage but the Wooyoung that keeps to himself, that listens attentively when someone needs to vent, that waits on the side of the stage for the group hug to end before approaching me. That whispers “It’s ok hyung, we love you” so that only I can hear.
My apology was for Lee Junho; the boy with the eye smile that pouts when things don’t go the way he wants them to. The fiercest and most driven of us all; the boy who oozes talent and charisma on stage yet is the purest soul I had yet to encounter. Unable to lie, or hide his emotion, and always misunderstood because of it.
My apology was for Hwang Chansung; the old magnae. The one that works harder than everyone else, that pushes himself to the max to make up for everything he thinks he lacks. The one that never complains, that laughs when things are funny and cries when he’s sad. The one that keeps a file of pictures of his cat. That sees life as one big philosophy waiting to be understood. The one that no matter what always tries to find the good side on everything, always positive, always willing to offer a smile.
My apology was for Kim MinJun; Not Jun K the music prodigy that spends hours locked up in a studio; but MinJun, the ridiculously funny man from Daegu that brightens up the mood regardless of how defeated we feel. That dress up his poor dog in ridiculous outfits and talks more bullshit than anyone I had met in my life. That can bring a crowd to tears with the simple sound of his voice and its constantly reminding us of how important these moments are. Of how much we would miss each other if we were to wake up tomorrow and one of us was no longer there.
My apology was for Ok Taecyeon; the 10 year old in the body of a beastly man. That goes around drawing ugly cats on whatever surface he can find, that puts on a cape and runs around in front of a camera calling himself batman. That dress up in a giant cat suit and goes out to greet his fans. The solid foundation that keeps us grounded, that constantly reminds us that we are not that great, that we are still lacking and need to be better… but that we are getting there and that we would do it together.
My apology was for them for my brothers. That didn’t condone my actions or told me it was an honest mistake, but scolded me harder than anyone else, and told me how stupid and stubborn I was in my face. That didn’t turn their back on me when things got rough, that were willing to wait until I was ready to show my face again.
My apology is for you all, my Hottest, that like my brothers stood beside me, holding up an umbrella to shield me from the rain.
I wonder how did I get so lucky to have you… to have met those 5 amazing men… I wonder all the time how I got here because after all my life is just so dang wonderful.
Thank you.
Things are going to change from now on… and even if we are no longer under the same roof… even if life decides to throw another obstacle our way… I’m confident that we can do it. I’m confident that I can do it… after all we are 2PM and we can’t stop… we won’t stop until we reach the top.
Rating- G
Character - Nichkhun, 2PM(mention)
Words- 858
Summary- My Apology was not for them....
A/N- This came to be after Nichkhun's tweet. I do not claim to know what is going through 2PM's head this is simply my interpretation as a fan. I posted it on my other site and just thought i would share it here as well. Hope you guys like it ^^
p.s. words at the start are from Rihanna's Question Existing. I do not own 2PM (sadly) just the story.
Entertaining is something I do for a living
It's not who I am, I'd like to think that I'm pretty normal,
I laugh, I get mad, I hurt, I think
Life sucks sometimes,
But when you're in the spotlight,
Everything seems good,
Sometimes I feel like I have it worse cause I have to always keep my guard up…
But sometimes I break down too…
It wasn’t my intention to cry. I was not looking for sympathy… I wasn’t expecting for you to forgive me. I just… I just really need it to get it off my chest.
“I’m sorry”
Such a simple phrase… yet it carries so much more meaning than the simple words can express.
“I’m sorry you guys had to suffer because of me”
It wasn’t for them I was apologizing. Not to the vouchers lurking in the shadows waiting for a chance to attack. I’m passed that now… pass trying to please them. Pass trying to get them to see that like them I’m a human being. Filled with faults and regrets, an imperfect human that somehow got lucky enough to be in the position I’m in today.
No.
My apology was for those beautiful people that no matter what, have stuck with me through thick and thin. For those that see me for who I am, that love me for what I do, for my angels that support me during the good times as well as the bad.
My apology was for Jang Wooyoung; not the playful guy he shows on stage but the Wooyoung that keeps to himself, that listens attentively when someone needs to vent, that waits on the side of the stage for the group hug to end before approaching me. That whispers “It’s ok hyung, we love you” so that only I can hear.
My apology was for Lee Junho; the boy with the eye smile that pouts when things don’t go the way he wants them to. The fiercest and most driven of us all; the boy who oozes talent and charisma on stage yet is the purest soul I had yet to encounter. Unable to lie, or hide his emotion, and always misunderstood because of it.
My apology was for Hwang Chansung; the old magnae. The one that works harder than everyone else, that pushes himself to the max to make up for everything he thinks he lacks. The one that never complains, that laughs when things are funny and cries when he’s sad. The one that keeps a file of pictures of his cat. That sees life as one big philosophy waiting to be understood. The one that no matter what always tries to find the good side on everything, always positive, always willing to offer a smile.
My apology was for Kim MinJun; Not Jun K the music prodigy that spends hours locked up in a studio; but MinJun, the ridiculously funny man from Daegu that brightens up the mood regardless of how defeated we feel. That dress up his poor dog in ridiculous outfits and talks more bullshit than anyone I had met in my life. That can bring a crowd to tears with the simple sound of his voice and its constantly reminding us of how important these moments are. Of how much we would miss each other if we were to wake up tomorrow and one of us was no longer there.
My apology was for Ok Taecyeon; the 10 year old in the body of a beastly man. That goes around drawing ugly cats on whatever surface he can find, that puts on a cape and runs around in front of a camera calling himself batman. That dress up in a giant cat suit and goes out to greet his fans. The solid foundation that keeps us grounded, that constantly reminds us that we are not that great, that we are still lacking and need to be better… but that we are getting there and that we would do it together.
My apology was for them for my brothers. That didn’t condone my actions or told me it was an honest mistake, but scolded me harder than anyone else, and told me how stupid and stubborn I was in my face. That didn’t turn their back on me when things got rough, that were willing to wait until I was ready to show my face again.
My apology is for you all, my Hottest, that like my brothers stood beside me, holding up an umbrella to shield me from the rain.
I wonder how did I get so lucky to have you… to have met those 5 amazing men… I wonder all the time how I got here because after all my life is just so dang wonderful.
Thank you.
Things are going to change from now on… and even if we are no longer under the same roof… even if life decides to throw another obstacle our way… I’m confident that we can do it. I’m confident that I can do it… after all we are 2PM and we can’t stop… we won’t stop until we reach the top.