Never To Betray You Again - Chapter 30
Title: Never To Betray You Again Chapter 30
Disclaimer: I didn't own anything except for the plot
Main Character: Yabu, Inoo, Yaotome, Arioka, Yuya, Yamada, Chinen
Genre: romance, mystery, friendship, thriller and death
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Kota locked himself to the world for 3 years and he even have times that he wanted to die already but he was always stopped by unexpected situation like fate didn't want him to die. After visiting a grieve, he accidentally met the most important person in his life which he thought was already dead. He treated it as an opportunity to fix what he have done wrong to him 3 years ago. But the real aftermath of the nightmare happened that years ago just began when the 5 members of Blazerz received a call stating that he knew everything that happened that night and he was planning to take revenge for the death of Sakura Minato.
Author's Note: Another revised version >___ < EnjoyXD
Never To Betray You Again
-Chapter Thirty-
Kota reached his room and noticed his phone on top of his bed. All this time he thought that it was with him and so he quite surprised to see It there. When he arrived someone was calling his phone and it was Kei's name. He answered it immediately since it was unusual for Kei to call so maybe it was something important but when he answered Kei turned it off. Kota wonder what happened and so he tried to call back but he can't have one because of low signal. That exact time Hiro arrived and noticed him searching for a signal.
"You should go outside if you wanted to call someone. The signal can't reach this room for some reason." Hiro said. "Are you calling someone important?" he asked him but Kota just smiled. It took Kota 15 minutes to finally found the right spot for a signal and he tried to call Kei again but this time he ended the call. He tried to call again but the phone is already turned off. It bothers Kota so he called Yuri's phone and asked him if Kei is already back at the apartment but Yuri said that he was not on their unit and he was on his mother's home that time.
Kota didn't know anyone who he can contact to and so he just stop but for some reason he doesn't feel right. He stayed in the shore for a moment while looking up at the star filled sky. "Are you alright Kei?" he whispered.
The conversation between him and Hikaru just finished a moment ago and he found out so many things regarding his story. Sakura was involved in so many things again not only in his life but to others as well. Like him, Hikaru was suffering because of her.
When Hikaru broke up to Sakura, the aftermath was a tragic one. Sakura was into him that she did everything for the two of them to come back with each other. She begged for a second chance, she promised lots of things that she will not repeat again and then she proved to Hikaru that she was worthy of him but Hikaru remained strong with his decision to broke up with her. After being betrayed before, he didn't want it to happen again because no one knows how painful it was to be betrayed by the person you love the most and he didn't want to feel same thing again. Even Sakura said that he didn't do it, he knew that he was lying because Ryosuke more than her. Even she said that she will not repeat it again, his trust was already ruined and one cheating is enough proof to make the relation ends.
Did Hikaru regret his action? Yes, a lot. Because of that stupid decision that he made everything turned into chaos. He pushed Sakura to used desperate tactics in order for him to go back to her and that was threatening him that if he will not have Hikaru again then he will revoke Keito's scholarship that her parents give to him. But Hikaru didn't play with her games as he still declined besides he believe that such civil kind of contract will not mere broken by such personal issues. Hikaru stand with his decision and ignore Sakura's words. "You will regret this Hikaru… you will regret breaking up with me." she threatened.
A week after breaking up, the consequences of his actions showed up but it was not through him but to Keito. Like what Sakura said, Keito's scholarship was cancelled. Keito was so shocked with what happened that he wonder what did he do wrong. He tried to persuade the Minato family to consider their decision but they said that it was final already besides they really didn't intend to give him an scholarship from the very beginning. Being Keito's friend, Hikaru was affected by the depression that his friend was suffering. Keito's family was already suffering plus the cancelation of his scholarship also affected them so much. He can't sleep and even eat because of it and he need to work part time jobs in order to earn money. He wanted to help Keito with the financial matters by working and giving him his salary but Keito refused. He appreciate Hikaru's kindness but he didn't want to bother his friends about his personal problem. Keito remained calm but Hikaru knew that deep inside he was lifting a big burden and it was not good for his sight. He felt that it was his fault why Keito need to suffer like that and so he decided to talk to Sakura about it.
That day that he decided to talk Sakura was somewhat chaotic. It's those moment that her group was having a problem about the disbandment of the group and all other issues. He was not sure if that was the right moment to talk to her after all the avoidance he did towards her in the past. He cut his communication and never talk to her since then. He waited for her in the gate area but he saw her talking with the other members of the Blazerz and the group went somewhere. Because of that he just decided to do it the next day.
But that next day didn't arrived.
When he go to school the next day a big news welcomed him. Sakura was dead and her murderer were unknown. Everyone in the campus was talking about it. How Sakura was brutally killed and for it to happened so fast. Hikaru was shocked with the news, he just saw Sakura yesterday and then… she was already dead?
Hikaru went out of the classroom and while passing through the corridor he heard some conversation of the girls that hangs around with Sakura.
"I heard she was raped by some gangster." one said. "and then after that get her belongings and killed her."
"It was terrible but didn't you noticed the changes towards her?" another said. "She change so much for some reason this few days. She seems bothered about something and it seems like she was more cautious with her actions. Also I heard that she was broken hearted."
"I heard that too. Do you know that time that we were drinking. She keep on talking about this guy that she loves so much but just throw her away. She was totally hurt that time that she cried the whole day and didn't eat at all. Since then her personality changes into worst and she got more enemy. I guess Sakura was too depressed about her break up that she didn't bother about her life anymore."
"Whoa… what a weird guy… dumping a pretty lady like Sakura."
"I guess it's his fault why Sakura died."
Hikaru heard everything that the girls were talking about and he can tell that it was him they were talking about. Upon hearing everything it hit him so hard and he remembered all the words that Sakura told him about loving him so much that she will kill herself if he will be gone.
The hyped of Sakura's death subsided a little after a few months. Together with her disappearance to the world, one guy was also become a topic for disappearing without noticed. He was Kei Inoo of Class 3-B and he also noticed the changes on Kota's actions and he was always absent in class even graduation is near. He also rarely talked to Keito because of his busy schedule and he felt so alone that time.
In the graduation ceremony Kota and Keito didn't attend. It was different from what they planned when they were still first year students that they will graduate together and bet who will going to cry first. When the ceremony is over he was alone and even he should supposed to be happy, he can't make himself to do it.
After a month from the graduation ceremony and he was busy with university life, he heard the news that Keito committed suicide. It was a shocked to him since he talk to him two days ago and he was trouble about the work that he was applying but at those moments he has still positive and really determined to have it. He never thought that Keito is already in the suicidal stage. The news broke Hikaru's world. It's hard to believe that his childhood friend was now already gone in the world and he will never have a chance to see him again forever. He visited Keito's old house where he saw his mother crying. He can tell how much his mother love Keito because he never leave his side all the time. He can't help himself from crying as well as he saw his friend's dead body. The trace of the rope he used to strangle himself was still on his neck and it was not a pleasant death after all.
When Keito's mother saw him, she immediately approached and hugged him tightly. Keito's mother became close to both Kota and him and literally became their second mother. "Hikaru… do you know what pushed my son to do this?" she asked. "Do you know?"
"I… I don't." he replied.
"It's probably that scholarship that broke him like this. He was so looking forward to that. He was so excited to enter the university that he like and study on it but all of a sudden it was cancelled without giving him a righteous reason as to why they did that." she said. "He said that he wanted to stand in the same level with you and Kota and so he was working his hardest for it. He said he wanted the two of you to be proud of him but it didn't happen. He was always saying that he was fine all this time I am asking him but he was not… my son is not okay."
Hikaru heard the scholarship again and it hit him deeper of his chest. It was his fault why the scholarship was cancelled. It was because of his personal issue that he forget to think about others. "I'm sorry." he whispered. "I'm sorry… I'm sorry… I'm sorry." he repeated while looking directly to Keito's mother with tears flowing from his eyes.
"Hika… why are you apologizing. You didn't do… anything wrong." she said. "You became a good friend to my son… you and Kota was always there for him and I considered the two of you as my second sons." she added.
"Please don't say that… please don't be so kind to me." Hikaru uttered then after that he run away. He rode the bus and decided to go to the beach to release the madness he was feeling. When he reached it he shout as loud as he can while tears were flowing from his eyes. "This is all my fault… I'm sorry… I'm sorry." he whispered to himself while tears falls down from his eyes. The cold wind of the fall season hits Hikaru's face and skin but he just ignore it as he was suffering in a more painful moments of his life. He was not sure of what to do anymore and he can't think of anything as he remembered that he was the reason of the death of two person he knew.
In Keito's burial he noticed that Kota didn't came at all. He never showed himself even once. When high school is over he never showed himself to anyone like he disappear without any words. He think that Kota is a jerk for not going to his best friend's burial and if his reason was not to see him then he was a bigger jerk. When he reached Kota's residence only the maid talked to him and told him that he was not going home and he have no idea where he is.
"Are you kidding me?"
"I… I am not sir." the maid said. "Even his parents was so worried about him because they can't find Kota-sama." she replied honestly. "I think… young master run away already."
When he go back to his house, he went straight to his room and locked the door. He sit down on his bed while facing a large pillow and he started punching it. "You jerk… running away like this. You're stupid… stupid" he said. "You asshole, jerk… do you really intend to leave just like that when I am suffering like this huh? This is all your fault… this is all your fault! This is… this is all my fault." he shouted. "I hate this life… I hate this life… I hate this life!" he continued to shout his frustration.
…..
"You're wrong." Kota answered Hikaru back after telling the whole story to him. Hikaru looked at him confusedly at first but it change back to his usual grouchy look.
"Are you not listening to my story?" Hikaru asked. "Or are you making fun of me?" he continued.
"That is not what I mean."
"Then what the hell do you mean by your words?" Hikaru retaliated back. "All this years I suffered by this thoughts and you just tell me I am wrong? Where did you go anyway? Why did you vanished and didn't show yourself? When things were so messed up you were also gone, it's like you run away and when the storm was calm and gone you came back. You are my best friend and you are supposed to be there with me when I didn't know what to do anymore with my life. I need you Kota but you didn't showed yourself and that's the reason I am so mad at you. I feel like I'm going insane with all those problems and so I throw all the things towards you… you who leave us alone... you who run away. I might be selfish for doing this but what else is my option? I have none… I was not given a privilege to have one you idiot!"
Kota remained in silence for a few seconds. He was just looking at Hikaru who was glaring at him all this time. He was surprised to hear all the things that Hikaru suffered when he was gone and lifting a burden he didn't do at all. It was not his fault that Sakura and Keito died…. It was not his fault because it was Kota's fault.
"Aren't I a coward till the end?" Kota asked Hikaru. "It's not your fault why Sakura died. You did nothing wrong." he continued. "It was me who killed her."
"Huh? Wh… what the hell are you talking about?"
"3 years ago, we blamed Sakura for the disbandment of the Blazerz and then… we killed her." Kota explained. "The 5 members of Blazerz and me included went to the abandon warehouse near the riverside and we did our sin. There's no reason for you to blame yourself… it was not your fault Hikaru… it was us… it was me."
Hikaru was dumbfounded with what he heard. He was speechless for a few moments and didn't know how to react with what he said. "Seriously?" he whispered. "No… there's no way…. You will do that. You are not the type of person who will do that."
"But I did." Kota replied immediately. "It's true that I didn't do anything to hurt her because I myself were surprised when the others decided to kill her. But I was there and I didn't do anything to stop them. They raped her and killed her and then throw the bodies near the riverside together with the garbage."
"B...bodies?"
Kota gasped and bite his lower lip. "I hate Sakura. The reason why you saw me and Aira together that night was her own fault. She played with us in order to lure you. She wanted our friendship to be ruined in order for me to be distracted and loss the audition and I guess its for her to get close to you because she loves you. There are lots of things that Sakura did to me that made me hate her and that's one reason why I didn't bother to save her when she was killed. Deep inside of me I… I wanted her to die to free myself from hell. But that night… it was not only her who was with us."
"Who?"
"The second body… was Kei… Kei Inoo." Kota confessed but he was surprised when he felt something hold his collar and pushed him to the wall. He was startled to see Hikaru glaring at him but this time it was more fearful.
"I remembered that the exact time Sakura died, you change your personality and Kei was gone. Don't tell me it's your fault as well? Huh? You idiot! Didn't you love him? Why do you need to hurt him as well?" Hikaru shouted back as he pinned Kota in the wall but he was surprised when he saw tears falling from Kota's face.
"That's the reason I regret it so much. That's the reason I locked myself for 3 years and never come out of the world. I cut ties from everyone and shut myself. I didn't attend university nor give a chance for work. I drown myself from alcohol and tried to kill myself so many times." he told him with cries in between. Hikaru slowly let go of him as he slide down the floor. "I didn't know he was there. He saw us killing Sakura and he was found out by Ono. He begged for his life but I was threatened by them that if I will let this out they will going to kill me. I choose my own life than Kei and I… I injured him. His right leg… I… I'm the one who did it to him. I’m the one who ruined his life… I am the one who steal his future on him."
Hikaru sit back at the bed while Kota confessed everything to him. He told him about believing that Kei was already dead because he didn't saw him for 3 years but he saw him months ago while visiting Sakura's grave. He was so happy when he saw him again but he can't remember him at all. He loss his memories of everything that happened and so Kota pretended that he was just a classmate of him in high school. Kota also told Hikaru that he was protecting Kei from the other members of Blazerz because he was afraid that if they found out that he was alive then his life will be in danger. Kei is the key to solve Sakura's mysterious death but since he have no memories of it he was just remained an empty shell.
Everything became clear to Hikaru now and all the questions he have on his head was finally answered but he was really surprised when he heard about Kota's story and even Kei being involved.
"You don't have…. Any plan to tell Kei the truth?" Hikaru asked him.
"I don't want him to hate me but… I don't have the luxury to be treat well by him after all the things I have done. I owe him a lot and for now I promise I will protect him from the other members. No one knows that he was alive except me but I am not sure how long I can hide the truth from them. I am not always with Kei in order to protect him and so… "
"I'm sorry." Hikaru apologized. "For everything I have done but this apology doesn't mean that everything is already fix. I am still mad at you… a lot but… it's hard for you as well right? Life?"
Kota sighed as he looked up at the sky. He was glad that things were mend between him and Hikaru but still there were lots of things that need to be done. He decided to go back to the hotel but just before he stand up his phone ring and it was a call coming from Kei but when he answered it he heard a different voice.
"Is this… Kota-san?" the voice asked. "I… I am Yuto Nakajima and Kei's phone is with me. H...how should I explain this… you are the first one on his recent call so I thought you are someone he frequently call. K..Kei Inoo is with me right now and he was ill. I… I didn't know where he leave and so…"
"Huh? Wh...what happened to Kei?"
"H… he was fine already. I… I just want you to give me the address he is living so that I can bring him back home he was sleeping so I… I can't ask."
"Can I trust you?" Kota asked.
"I am not sure." Yuto replied. "It's up to you if you will trust me but I have a strong resolve that I will do no bad to other people. I am here to help." he replied.
…
Kei woke up from his slumber but he found himself in a different room. He still feel sluggish but much better than he was in that state. Everything flashed on his head again, the memories of being chased by Sano, the desperate moments of wanting to live. He was about to sighed when someone knocked on the door and it startled him.
"Y...you're awake already." Yuto said. "Here… I… I used your phone to call someone. I planned on taking you back to your home so I asked someone from you contacts where is your address."
"Who did you call?" Kei asked.
"Ko...Kota."
"Di...did you tell him what happened to me?" Kei asked frantically.
"C..calm down." he said. "I didn't tell him entirely what happened besides I didn't know what really happened either. I just told him your ill and sick and he was so worried about you. Is he someone important to you? Your… brother or best friend maybe… he worry so much for you." Yuto said.
"H… he is just a neighbour."
"Seriously?" Yuto blurted out all of a sudden. "That's a shock. I thought he was someone… more than that. Anyway are you hungry? Do you want me to prepare something to eat before you go back home?"
"No… I… I'm going back. I'm sorry for the inconvenience."
"Eh? You're going alone? Wait… I'll come with you. I can't leave you going home like that. You look so… fragile." Yuto said and just after he heard the door bell ring and so he opened the door. Kei waited for him in the room to come back but he heard a voice of a girl and so he sneaked a look who it was but he was surprised with what he saw.
"Who is that?" the girl asked Yuto.
"A… a friend I met a while back. He was sick so I let him in." he answered.
"Why do he look at me like he was scared. Is there something in my face?"
"We...well nothing really…" Yuto said. "Kei… are you alright? What's wrong with you?"
"Sa...Sakura?" he whispered.
Author's Note: Welcome to the 30's >___< This chapter conclude the story of HIkaru. Actually i revised this chapter and i was satisfied with how it ended. I think it explained everything why HIkaru acted that way towards Kota. And also the highlights of this chapter? A new character again. You will found out her true identity in the next chapter so i will let the explanation there.
I can already feel the summer in my country. Before i can stand staying in the 2nd floor of our house without using electric fan but now i need it so badly or else i'm going to melt. It's just the start and i wonder if i can take it when it really hits the summer season. Tomorrow is the release of Koro Sensations right? Our dvd will arrived i guess next next week but i hope it will be next week so we can watch that new group >___< I wonder if they can beat HSJ on my bias idol list? hehe.
Feel free to comment what do you think about this chapter. I love to hear your feedback regarding this.
Jya XD
Disclaimer: I didn't own anything except for the plot
Main Character: Yabu, Inoo, Yaotome, Arioka, Yuya, Yamada, Chinen
Genre: romance, mystery, friendship, thriller and death
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Kota locked himself to the world for 3 years and he even have times that he wanted to die already but he was always stopped by unexpected situation like fate didn't want him to die. After visiting a grieve, he accidentally met the most important person in his life which he thought was already dead. He treated it as an opportunity to fix what he have done wrong to him 3 years ago. But the real aftermath of the nightmare happened that years ago just began when the 5 members of Blazerz received a call stating that he knew everything that happened that night and he was planning to take revenge for the death of Sakura Minato.
Author's Note: Another revised version >___ < EnjoyXD
Never To Betray You Again
-Chapter Thirty-
Kota reached his room and noticed his phone on top of his bed. All this time he thought that it was with him and so he quite surprised to see It there. When he arrived someone was calling his phone and it was Kei's name. He answered it immediately since it was unusual for Kei to call so maybe it was something important but when he answered Kei turned it off. Kota wonder what happened and so he tried to call back but he can't have one because of low signal. That exact time Hiro arrived and noticed him searching for a signal.
"You should go outside if you wanted to call someone. The signal can't reach this room for some reason." Hiro said. "Are you calling someone important?" he asked him but Kota just smiled. It took Kota 15 minutes to finally found the right spot for a signal and he tried to call Kei again but this time he ended the call. He tried to call again but the phone is already turned off. It bothers Kota so he called Yuri's phone and asked him if Kei is already back at the apartment but Yuri said that he was not on their unit and he was on his mother's home that time.
Kota didn't know anyone who he can contact to and so he just stop but for some reason he doesn't feel right. He stayed in the shore for a moment while looking up at the star filled sky. "Are you alright Kei?" he whispered.
The conversation between him and Hikaru just finished a moment ago and he found out so many things regarding his story. Sakura was involved in so many things again not only in his life but to others as well. Like him, Hikaru was suffering because of her.
When Hikaru broke up to Sakura, the aftermath was a tragic one. Sakura was into him that she did everything for the two of them to come back with each other. She begged for a second chance, she promised lots of things that she will not repeat again and then she proved to Hikaru that she was worthy of him but Hikaru remained strong with his decision to broke up with her. After being betrayed before, he didn't want it to happen again because no one knows how painful it was to be betrayed by the person you love the most and he didn't want to feel same thing again. Even Sakura said that he didn't do it, he knew that he was lying because Ryosuke more than her. Even she said that she will not repeat it again, his trust was already ruined and one cheating is enough proof to make the relation ends.
Did Hikaru regret his action? Yes, a lot. Because of that stupid decision that he made everything turned into chaos. He pushed Sakura to used desperate tactics in order for him to go back to her and that was threatening him that if he will not have Hikaru again then he will revoke Keito's scholarship that her parents give to him. But Hikaru didn't play with her games as he still declined besides he believe that such civil kind of contract will not mere broken by such personal issues. Hikaru stand with his decision and ignore Sakura's words. "You will regret this Hikaru… you will regret breaking up with me." she threatened.
A week after breaking up, the consequences of his actions showed up but it was not through him but to Keito. Like what Sakura said, Keito's scholarship was cancelled. Keito was so shocked with what happened that he wonder what did he do wrong. He tried to persuade the Minato family to consider their decision but they said that it was final already besides they really didn't intend to give him an scholarship from the very beginning. Being Keito's friend, Hikaru was affected by the depression that his friend was suffering. Keito's family was already suffering plus the cancelation of his scholarship also affected them so much. He can't sleep and even eat because of it and he need to work part time jobs in order to earn money. He wanted to help Keito with the financial matters by working and giving him his salary but Keito refused. He appreciate Hikaru's kindness but he didn't want to bother his friends about his personal problem. Keito remained calm but Hikaru knew that deep inside he was lifting a big burden and it was not good for his sight. He felt that it was his fault why Keito need to suffer like that and so he decided to talk to Sakura about it.
That day that he decided to talk Sakura was somewhat chaotic. It's those moment that her group was having a problem about the disbandment of the group and all other issues. He was not sure if that was the right moment to talk to her after all the avoidance he did towards her in the past. He cut his communication and never talk to her since then. He waited for her in the gate area but he saw her talking with the other members of the Blazerz and the group went somewhere. Because of that he just decided to do it the next day.
But that next day didn't arrived.
When he go to school the next day a big news welcomed him. Sakura was dead and her murderer were unknown. Everyone in the campus was talking about it. How Sakura was brutally killed and for it to happened so fast. Hikaru was shocked with the news, he just saw Sakura yesterday and then… she was already dead?
Hikaru went out of the classroom and while passing through the corridor he heard some conversation of the girls that hangs around with Sakura.
"I heard she was raped by some gangster." one said. "and then after that get her belongings and killed her."
"It was terrible but didn't you noticed the changes towards her?" another said. "She change so much for some reason this few days. She seems bothered about something and it seems like she was more cautious with her actions. Also I heard that she was broken hearted."
"I heard that too. Do you know that time that we were drinking. She keep on talking about this guy that she loves so much but just throw her away. She was totally hurt that time that she cried the whole day and didn't eat at all. Since then her personality changes into worst and she got more enemy. I guess Sakura was too depressed about her break up that she didn't bother about her life anymore."
"Whoa… what a weird guy… dumping a pretty lady like Sakura."
"I guess it's his fault why Sakura died."
Hikaru heard everything that the girls were talking about and he can tell that it was him they were talking about. Upon hearing everything it hit him so hard and he remembered all the words that Sakura told him about loving him so much that she will kill herself if he will be gone.
The hyped of Sakura's death subsided a little after a few months. Together with her disappearance to the world, one guy was also become a topic for disappearing without noticed. He was Kei Inoo of Class 3-B and he also noticed the changes on Kota's actions and he was always absent in class even graduation is near. He also rarely talked to Keito because of his busy schedule and he felt so alone that time.
In the graduation ceremony Kota and Keito didn't attend. It was different from what they planned when they were still first year students that they will graduate together and bet who will going to cry first. When the ceremony is over he was alone and even he should supposed to be happy, he can't make himself to do it.
After a month from the graduation ceremony and he was busy with university life, he heard the news that Keito committed suicide. It was a shocked to him since he talk to him two days ago and he was trouble about the work that he was applying but at those moments he has still positive and really determined to have it. He never thought that Keito is already in the suicidal stage. The news broke Hikaru's world. It's hard to believe that his childhood friend was now already gone in the world and he will never have a chance to see him again forever. He visited Keito's old house where he saw his mother crying. He can tell how much his mother love Keito because he never leave his side all the time. He can't help himself from crying as well as he saw his friend's dead body. The trace of the rope he used to strangle himself was still on his neck and it was not a pleasant death after all.
When Keito's mother saw him, she immediately approached and hugged him tightly. Keito's mother became close to both Kota and him and literally became their second mother. "Hikaru… do you know what pushed my son to do this?" she asked. "Do you know?"
"I… I don't." he replied.
"It's probably that scholarship that broke him like this. He was so looking forward to that. He was so excited to enter the university that he like and study on it but all of a sudden it was cancelled without giving him a righteous reason as to why they did that." she said. "He said that he wanted to stand in the same level with you and Kota and so he was working his hardest for it. He said he wanted the two of you to be proud of him but it didn't happen. He was always saying that he was fine all this time I am asking him but he was not… my son is not okay."
Hikaru heard the scholarship again and it hit him deeper of his chest. It was his fault why the scholarship was cancelled. It was because of his personal issue that he forget to think about others. "I'm sorry." he whispered. "I'm sorry… I'm sorry… I'm sorry." he repeated while looking directly to Keito's mother with tears flowing from his eyes.
"Hika… why are you apologizing. You didn't do… anything wrong." she said. "You became a good friend to my son… you and Kota was always there for him and I considered the two of you as my second sons." she added.
"Please don't say that… please don't be so kind to me." Hikaru uttered then after that he run away. He rode the bus and decided to go to the beach to release the madness he was feeling. When he reached it he shout as loud as he can while tears were flowing from his eyes. "This is all my fault… I'm sorry… I'm sorry." he whispered to himself while tears falls down from his eyes. The cold wind of the fall season hits Hikaru's face and skin but he just ignore it as he was suffering in a more painful moments of his life. He was not sure of what to do anymore and he can't think of anything as he remembered that he was the reason of the death of two person he knew.
In Keito's burial he noticed that Kota didn't came at all. He never showed himself even once. When high school is over he never showed himself to anyone like he disappear without any words. He think that Kota is a jerk for not going to his best friend's burial and if his reason was not to see him then he was a bigger jerk. When he reached Kota's residence only the maid talked to him and told him that he was not going home and he have no idea where he is.
"Are you kidding me?"
"I… I am not sir." the maid said. "Even his parents was so worried about him because they can't find Kota-sama." she replied honestly. "I think… young master run away already."
When he go back to his house, he went straight to his room and locked the door. He sit down on his bed while facing a large pillow and he started punching it. "You jerk… running away like this. You're stupid… stupid" he said. "You asshole, jerk… do you really intend to leave just like that when I am suffering like this huh? This is all your fault… this is all your fault! This is… this is all my fault." he shouted. "I hate this life… I hate this life… I hate this life!" he continued to shout his frustration.
…..
"You're wrong." Kota answered Hikaru back after telling the whole story to him. Hikaru looked at him confusedly at first but it change back to his usual grouchy look.
"Are you not listening to my story?" Hikaru asked. "Or are you making fun of me?" he continued.
"That is not what I mean."
"Then what the hell do you mean by your words?" Hikaru retaliated back. "All this years I suffered by this thoughts and you just tell me I am wrong? Where did you go anyway? Why did you vanished and didn't show yourself? When things were so messed up you were also gone, it's like you run away and when the storm was calm and gone you came back. You are my best friend and you are supposed to be there with me when I didn't know what to do anymore with my life. I need you Kota but you didn't showed yourself and that's the reason I am so mad at you. I feel like I'm going insane with all those problems and so I throw all the things towards you… you who leave us alone... you who run away. I might be selfish for doing this but what else is my option? I have none… I was not given a privilege to have one you idiot!"
Kota remained in silence for a few seconds. He was just looking at Hikaru who was glaring at him all this time. He was surprised to hear all the things that Hikaru suffered when he was gone and lifting a burden he didn't do at all. It was not his fault that Sakura and Keito died…. It was not his fault because it was Kota's fault.
"Aren't I a coward till the end?" Kota asked Hikaru. "It's not your fault why Sakura died. You did nothing wrong." he continued. "It was me who killed her."
"Huh? Wh… what the hell are you talking about?"
"3 years ago, we blamed Sakura for the disbandment of the Blazerz and then… we killed her." Kota explained. "The 5 members of Blazerz and me included went to the abandon warehouse near the riverside and we did our sin. There's no reason for you to blame yourself… it was not your fault Hikaru… it was us… it was me."
Hikaru was dumbfounded with what he heard. He was speechless for a few moments and didn't know how to react with what he said. "Seriously?" he whispered. "No… there's no way…. You will do that. You are not the type of person who will do that."
"But I did." Kota replied immediately. "It's true that I didn't do anything to hurt her because I myself were surprised when the others decided to kill her. But I was there and I didn't do anything to stop them. They raped her and killed her and then throw the bodies near the riverside together with the garbage."
"B...bodies?"
Kota gasped and bite his lower lip. "I hate Sakura. The reason why you saw me and Aira together that night was her own fault. She played with us in order to lure you. She wanted our friendship to be ruined in order for me to be distracted and loss the audition and I guess its for her to get close to you because she loves you. There are lots of things that Sakura did to me that made me hate her and that's one reason why I didn't bother to save her when she was killed. Deep inside of me I… I wanted her to die to free myself from hell. But that night… it was not only her who was with us."
"Who?"
"The second body… was Kei… Kei Inoo." Kota confessed but he was surprised when he felt something hold his collar and pushed him to the wall. He was startled to see Hikaru glaring at him but this time it was more fearful.
"I remembered that the exact time Sakura died, you change your personality and Kei was gone. Don't tell me it's your fault as well? Huh? You idiot! Didn't you love him? Why do you need to hurt him as well?" Hikaru shouted back as he pinned Kota in the wall but he was surprised when he saw tears falling from Kota's face.
"That's the reason I regret it so much. That's the reason I locked myself for 3 years and never come out of the world. I cut ties from everyone and shut myself. I didn't attend university nor give a chance for work. I drown myself from alcohol and tried to kill myself so many times." he told him with cries in between. Hikaru slowly let go of him as he slide down the floor. "I didn't know he was there. He saw us killing Sakura and he was found out by Ono. He begged for his life but I was threatened by them that if I will let this out they will going to kill me. I choose my own life than Kei and I… I injured him. His right leg… I… I'm the one who did it to him. I’m the one who ruined his life… I am the one who steal his future on him."
Hikaru sit back at the bed while Kota confessed everything to him. He told him about believing that Kei was already dead because he didn't saw him for 3 years but he saw him months ago while visiting Sakura's grave. He was so happy when he saw him again but he can't remember him at all. He loss his memories of everything that happened and so Kota pretended that he was just a classmate of him in high school. Kota also told Hikaru that he was protecting Kei from the other members of Blazerz because he was afraid that if they found out that he was alive then his life will be in danger. Kei is the key to solve Sakura's mysterious death but since he have no memories of it he was just remained an empty shell.
Everything became clear to Hikaru now and all the questions he have on his head was finally answered but he was really surprised when he heard about Kota's story and even Kei being involved.
"You don't have…. Any plan to tell Kei the truth?" Hikaru asked him.
"I don't want him to hate me but… I don't have the luxury to be treat well by him after all the things I have done. I owe him a lot and for now I promise I will protect him from the other members. No one knows that he was alive except me but I am not sure how long I can hide the truth from them. I am not always with Kei in order to protect him and so… "
"I'm sorry." Hikaru apologized. "For everything I have done but this apology doesn't mean that everything is already fix. I am still mad at you… a lot but… it's hard for you as well right? Life?"
Kota sighed as he looked up at the sky. He was glad that things were mend between him and Hikaru but still there were lots of things that need to be done. He decided to go back to the hotel but just before he stand up his phone ring and it was a call coming from Kei but when he answered it he heard a different voice.
"Is this… Kota-san?" the voice asked. "I… I am Yuto Nakajima and Kei's phone is with me. H...how should I explain this… you are the first one on his recent call so I thought you are someone he frequently call. K..Kei Inoo is with me right now and he was ill. I… I didn't know where he leave and so…"
"Huh? Wh...what happened to Kei?"
"H… he was fine already. I… I just want you to give me the address he is living so that I can bring him back home he was sleeping so I… I can't ask."
"Can I trust you?" Kota asked.
"I am not sure." Yuto replied. "It's up to you if you will trust me but I have a strong resolve that I will do no bad to other people. I am here to help." he replied.
…
Kei woke up from his slumber but he found himself in a different room. He still feel sluggish but much better than he was in that state. Everything flashed on his head again, the memories of being chased by Sano, the desperate moments of wanting to live. He was about to sighed when someone knocked on the door and it startled him.
"Y...you're awake already." Yuto said. "Here… I… I used your phone to call someone. I planned on taking you back to your home so I asked someone from you contacts where is your address."
"Who did you call?" Kei asked.
"Ko...Kota."
"Di...did you tell him what happened to me?" Kei asked frantically.
"C..calm down." he said. "I didn't tell him entirely what happened besides I didn't know what really happened either. I just told him your ill and sick and he was so worried about you. Is he someone important to you? Your… brother or best friend maybe… he worry so much for you." Yuto said.
"H… he is just a neighbour."
"Seriously?" Yuto blurted out all of a sudden. "That's a shock. I thought he was someone… more than that. Anyway are you hungry? Do you want me to prepare something to eat before you go back home?"
"No… I… I'm going back. I'm sorry for the inconvenience."
"Eh? You're going alone? Wait… I'll come with you. I can't leave you going home like that. You look so… fragile." Yuto said and just after he heard the door bell ring and so he opened the door. Kei waited for him in the room to come back but he heard a voice of a girl and so he sneaked a look who it was but he was surprised with what he saw.
"Who is that?" the girl asked Yuto.
"A… a friend I met a while back. He was sick so I let him in." he answered.
"Why do he look at me like he was scared. Is there something in my face?"
"We...well nothing really…" Yuto said. "Kei… are you alright? What's wrong with you?"
"Sa...Sakura?" he whispered.
Author's Note: Welcome to the 30's >___< This chapter conclude the story of HIkaru. Actually i revised this chapter and i was satisfied with how it ended. I think it explained everything why HIkaru acted that way towards Kota. And also the highlights of this chapter? A new character again. You will found out her true identity in the next chapter so i will let the explanation there.
I can already feel the summer in my country. Before i can stand staying in the 2nd floor of our house without using electric fan but now i need it so badly or else i'm going to melt. It's just the start and i wonder if i can take it when it really hits the summer season. Tomorrow is the release of Koro Sensations right? Our dvd will arrived i guess next next week but i hope it will be next week so we can watch that new group >___< I wonder if they can beat HSJ on my bias idol list? hehe.
Feel free to comment what do you think about this chapter. I love to hear your feedback regarding this.
Jya XD