Pandora's Box - Chapter 4
TITLE: Pandora's Box - Chapter 4
DISCLAIMER: I didn't own any of the character but i own the plotXD
GENRE: romance, slice of life, drama
CHARACTERS: Inoo, Yabu, Yaotome, Arioka, Yamada, Takaki, Nakajima
SUMMARY: Hatred turned to love, silence turned to seeking and lies become truth. Kota just hit the rock bottom making him realize that memories should not remained unlock. He seek for truth, he yearned for what really happened and why things are going this and that. But what if he is going further to what is already near to him? Is everything gone too late to change? Everyone is given curiosity and so will you open the box as well?
AUTHOR'S NOTE: This is the revised version of my on going fanfic Pandora's Box. Enjoy^___^
Pandora's Box
Chapter 4
"Hair"
His voice keeps on echoing in my ears, piercing my heart till it bleed.
“Are you sure you want to cut your hair that short? Your hair is so lovely and it’s a waste.” The barber asked Ryosuke as he sit down and look at himself in the mirror.
“Yes I am sure about it.” Ryosuke said monotonously as he seriously stares at his reflection. Deep inside his mind he was talking to that old Ryosuke that will say goodbye soon. Since child he already wore an eyeglass and he always have long hair which was the reason why his classmates teased him, calling him nerdy and a geek, but he didn’t change his image because there was a certain someone that told him he looks great the way he is. For years he hold on to that words and so he never tried to change how he looks even there are people who look down on him. As long as that guy was always at his side and accepting how he looks like he will just cover his ears and eyes from what other people see and say. He live a life just like that but then the time that he realized he can’t live his life like he used to forever finally arrived.
The barber give him a deep sigh and then he started to comb his hair but then he hesitated on cutting it. He asked again if Ryosuke was serious about his decision and he just nod down like an obedient puppy. As Ryosuke heard the first snip of the scissor that cut the first strands of his hair, all memories flashed on his mind. His voice on his ear, his face on his eyes and that last confession he did on his mind. Without noticing it, tears starts to fall from his eyes as the barber continued to cut his hair. Long years of loving someone just ended like that.
Ryosuke went back home with his new hair and everyone inside his own house was so shocked about his extravagant transformation. His 3 big sisters talked about it all the time wondering what happened to their one and only little brother that he decided to change his image for his last year in high school. They are even more surprised when their mother told them that Ryosuke asked her to order for contact lenses since he didn’t want to wear glasses anymore. They even made an international call to their father who was working abroad to tell what is happening to Ryosuke coz it was really a shocked to them.
As Rysouke step inside the classroom on the first day of school, everyone’s eyes fastened on him and it was obvious that they were all shocked and surprised with what their eyes perceived. Even Kei and HIkaru, who is his best friends, cannot believed that their nerdy friend suddenly became an stunning bishounen. He was not used to with the attention but for some reason he didn’t hate it. Everyone’s view towards him changes and now they are not looking down on him anymore but they are admiring him instead.
The next day Ryosuke was assigned to be the next class president of their class. Everyone agreed because of his great accomplishment when they were second year. He is the one who did all the planning on last year’s festival and they won as the best class’s booth because of his knowledgeable and skillful ideas. He, together with Alen who is his secretary, both attended the meeting that afternoon where other class presidents were to come.
Like when he entered their classroom before, everyone was also staring at him when he and Alen entered the meeting room. The faces are just the same, it seems like other class also retained the same class presidents as what they have before to lessen the hassle of choosing a new one. Alen and Ryosuke sit down at the same time when another group of boys entered the classroom and it was Yuya together with Krono, who was last year’s Class 2-C president.
Ryosuke and Yuya’s eye met each other but Ryosuke immediately avert it away from him. Yuya was about to sit down on the vacant chair in front of him but then Krono grabbed him to his collar and dragged him towards Ryosuke’s seats. Actually Alen and Krono are best friends and they are separated for the first time this year. “So you are someone else secretary this year.” Krono said as he stared at Ryosuke. “You look different. Did you have heartbreak so you cut your hair?” he asked Rysouke as he sit down besides Alen.
“It’s not like that.” Ryosuke answered him.
“Really? Then why are you blushing?” Krono teased, since before he already love teasing Rysouke. “Yuya, aren’t the two of you best friends? Why don’t you tell me what is the reason behind? I’m curious…”
“Stop teasing him.” Yuya told Krono and so the class president pouted and he just talk to Alen.
While Alen and Krono are busy talking to each other Yuya and Ryosuke remained in silence in their own sit. They are like that until the head of the student’s council who is the speaker came together with his other subordinates and started the meeting immediately. They talk about the usual stuffs like the class attendance, maintenance of cleanliness in the school, controlling student’s behavior and other stuffs that are related to the student’s welfare and improvement while they are in the school. Ryosuke was busy writing everything on his notes while Yuya falls asleep. He really didn’t want to be the secretary but Krono joined him in that mess and so he doesn’t have any choice.
After an hour, finally the meeting was over. Krono asked if Alen and Rysouke wanted to join their class in a party but Ryosuke refused telling them that he still have something to do which is obviously just an excused to escape from them. Alen come with them since he already misses his old class.
…
Yuya and his new found friends decided to have a party. They went to a nearby restaurant where they ordered anything they wanted to eat. There are 10 of them who are there and of course Alen was included to that count. Yuya was troubled when it’s just the first day since he was separated to his best friends but as he mingle now with those boys he think that they are not hard to be friend with and they are jolly and really manly since some of them already have their girlfriends.
“When did that girl answer you?” Krono asked Alen who was sitting besides Yuya. “Vacation?”
“Yup… we meet and dated and then finally she give me the yes and now were officially dating.” He answered. “Yuya… do you have a girlfriend?” he asked as he look at Yuya who was busy eating his food.
“I don’t have.” Yuya answered honestly.
“Ha? With that look you don’t have a girlfriend? Don’t tell me you NEVER have a girlfriend before?” Krono asked him.
“Is there something wrong with that?”
“Seriously?” the three guys asked all the same time and they even make their faces closer to their friend.
“Yeah… it’s not a requirement to have a girlfriend in the school right? So why do I need to have one. It’s not like I am not interested with relationship but maybe you can say that I am the type who believes that my first one should be the last one.”
The three chuckled and then later on they laugh out loud. Alen tap Yuya’s shoulder as he nod his head “That sounds corny coming from you. But I am serious with the girl I am dating right now and she is my first too and I hope she will be my last as well.”
“Appearance wise…. Yuya really looks like someone who loves to flirt.” Another guy told him.
“I agree… I agree.”
“But there is a girl that you like? It’s impossible that there is no one you are interested in right now right?”
Yuya put down the juice that he is drinking on the table and pause for a moment before they give them a reply. “Yeah I do have…” he answered without hesitation.
“What school then? Tell us… tell us…we will rate her for you. You are really good looking and rich so we are thinking that you have a really high level of likeness towards girl and you are popular too.” Krono told him.
“It’s a secret.“ Yuya told them and then he smirk as the boys look at him with frustration.
…
If there is one moment in his life that he wanted to turn back and change, then he only have one answer to that. As Ryosuke flipped the pages of his notebook, it stopped to a page where there is a picture stocked. He turned it back and saw that It was his picture when he is in his Grade 4 and Yuya was together with him, smiling widely like there is no tomorrow. It is the first picture of the two of them and he was really happy when it was taken by his big sister.
Yuya and Ryosuke didn’t start as friends. Actually Yuya is one of the boys who bully Ryosuke all the time saying that he was a nerd, geek and ugly. He is part of those students who throw his things away, vandalized his desk and lockers and even throw bad words towards him. Yuya is the guy that Ryosuke hated the most.
But everything change when he was in Year 4 when some guys in other section wanted to throw egg towards him and so he run away. He run away from those students chasing after him and hide himself at the back of the school near the storage room and to his surprised he saw Yuya there crying his tears out. He was shocked and didn’t know what to do. He never had seen Yuya in that state and he just look at him for a moment without saying anything at all. When Yuya noticed his presence he stand up and immediately wipe his tears away and then glare at Ryosuke like he will going to eat him. “Did you see that?” Yuya asked him.
“I… I…” Ryosuke stammered but he startled when Yuya suddenly push him.
“If you tell someone that you saw me cry I’m going to shave your head and embarrassed you to the whole students here. Understand?” Yuya ordered him. Ryosuke was not able to answer back because of fear and he just watch as Yuya leave that place.
That was not the last time that he saw Yuya in that state. For some odd reason Ryosuke always saw Yuya whenever he is down and sad. That time he started to realize that even a stone hearted guy like Yuya can be so soft looking whenever he is crying.
One day he found out the reason why he was always like that. In a parent’s teacher activity in the school, Yuya is the only one who don’t have parents that came by. His teacher was asking where his parents are but he was not answering to him and he just give him a glare. The teacher scolded him because of his bad act but Yuya just walk out of the room where he accidentally bump Ryosuke who was silently listening to them that time and he saw him with teary eyes.
Ryosuke follow after Yuya as he run away and that time the snow was falling from the skies and it was really cold and freezing. Ryosuke forgot his coat and his gloves and he was really cold but even so he still chase after Yuya.
“Stop following me.” Yuya shouted on him when he noticed Ryosuke following him.
“Bu…but… you are…”
“What? Are you going to laugh at me coz I am the only one who don’t have parents who come to that event? Yes… my parents didn’t love me at all and because of that they don’t come”
“Why will I laugh at you?” Ryosuke asked him back. “I mean… I am not used to that… I am used to being bullied by you.”
“Huh? Are you a masochist? Leave me alone already. I don’t want your pity.”
“But you forget your coat. Let’s go back inside already.”
“You go back alone. Your mother is waiting for you right? No one was waiting for me there.” Yuya said but he was shocked when he felt a cold hand holding him. He didn’t noticed that Rysouke was already besides him that time and he was shivering. “Let’s go back Takaki.”
“Why are you following me? why are you doing this?”
“Cause you are so cute that I can’t abandon you.” Ryosuke smiled back at him and that answer made Yuya shut up and just agreed on what Ryosuke was telling him. The two of them went back to the school where they were taken care by Rysouke’s mother who scold them for going outside without wearing any sweater and gloves. Yuya was wondering why Ryosuke’s mother was so nice to him even he was not her son but when he was hug by Ryosuke’s mother he felt so warm and felt good.
The next day Yuya told Ryosuke about the situation of his family. He was an adopted son of the Takaki couple who thought they will never have a child anymore and so they decided to adopt. But 3 years after Yuya was officialy adopted by the couple, a baby girl was born. Since that day Yuya was always jealous to the legal child because his parents take care of her differently as they take care of him. He thought that he was not love and he was just a third party in that house and that’s the reason he was always depressed.
After that talk the two became closer to each other which surprised the whole class. There was a time when Rysouke was being bullied and Yuya defended him and told those bully to stop doing it. Ryosuke thought that Yuya was his knight in shining armor that time and he just didn’t realized that he was already falling for him.
And he just realized his feelings for him when Yuya told him. “I like your long hair. It really suits you.”
Since that day, Ryosuke decided that he will not cut his hair and he will maintain it since he was complemented by Yuya for the first time. Days passed by so fast. Kei transferred to their school when they are in Year 6 and because of his kindness he was easily accepted by the students and Yuya was not an exemtion. He became Kei’s friend as well, actually they really become close friend since they have the same hobby, they both love reading books.
When they reached junior high, HIkaru and Daiki became their classmate and the group becomes bigger. Ryosuke was not bullied anymore because he have friends that protect him but Yuya’s attention was divided into more people. He feels bad about the growing distance between them but he can’t blame anyone. It’s part of life to have a circle of friends.
If there is one moment in his life that Rysouke wanted to change then that is the time that he hide at the back of the school yard and saw Yuya’s tears. If he didn’t saw that then Yuya will just remain as an enemy to his eyes and then he will never realized that he was in love with him. And if he didn’t realized that he is in love with him then he will not be hurt like what he is feeling that time.
Before their second year comes to an end, Ryosuke’s bottled feelings for Yuya were overflowing. All the feelings wanted to get out of his chest and wanted to reach the person it always speak to. As he collects all his courage to confessed, he invited Yuya at the rooftop of their school and with all his might he confessed his true feelings for him.
“I love you… I love Yuya. Ple…please go out with me.” Ryosuke confessed with his red face and very loud thumping sound of his heart. He planned to say something else before he finally said the word but since he was too nervous he went straight to the point of his confession.
“Wh…what?” Yuya asked him back, shocked and puzzled.
“I like you. I know this is so sudden but this feelings that I have for you is not new anymore. Since our junior days, even in our elementary years I… I always…” Ryosuke tried to explained making sure that his feelings will reach Yuya even a little.
“Ryo…I didn’t know that you think of me this way but… I only… I only consider you as a friend.” Yuya replied back.
Ryosuke somewhat knew that his confession will end up like that, rejected. Even how special his treatment towards Yuya, the other one will only just consider him as a friend and nothing else. But despite of everything, he still hold onto the hope that even just a little bit Yuya was feeling the same way as he did. All those kindness he showed him, all those treatment that he received from him, he thought that behind it there is some spark going on but he just overestimated the situation and expected something impossible to happen. Yeah, how will a prince like Yuya falls for someone like him who only experience bullying because of his looks since he was child. How will two ends meet in that situation?
Also for a long time that they are together he observed something about Yuya. The most hated part when you love someone is when he likes someone else. He was not sure about it but he was speculating that he have someone he likes and he already have an idea who could it be but because of fear of knowing the truth he just remained silent and never tried to ask but now… he wanted to know the truth.
“By…by any chance do you like someone else?” Ryosuke asked bravely though at the back of his mind he wanted to cover his ear and refuse to hear what Yuya is about to say.
“I have.” Yuya answered back.
“Who is she? Who is this someone?” Ryosuke asked him again. The pain is accumulating deep inside his heart but he was suppressing himself so that he will not cry in front of Yuya.
“It’s better if you don’t know.”
“Why?” he asked softly. “Why can’t it be me?” he sniffed.
Ryosuke put the picture on his drawer and close it. It’s painful for him to remember that rejection that he experienced and also to know who is that someone that Yuya likes more than him. He went to his bed and jump over it facing the ceiling. If only forgetting is like bubbles popping in just a few seconds and will never be formed again then how life would be easy for him. It’s been months since that confession and he was really trying his best to forget about him but every time their paths intersect whenever they are at school all those feelings that crumbled into pieces suddenly builds up again.
He covered his eyes with his right hand and as darkness filled his visions his mind is on the journey of knowing what he need to do. He can’t stay like that forever, he can’t love someone who doesn’t like him coz he know he will just be hurt. But… what can he do? Even his mind contradicts his heart he still wanted to take the same path all over again. Even he will be hurt repeatedly he still wanted to stay on Yuya’s side.
“Why can’t it be me?”
“Coz its Kei… It’s Kei who I like.”
DISCLAIMER: I didn't own any of the character but i own the plotXD
GENRE: romance, slice of life, drama
CHARACTERS: Inoo, Yabu, Yaotome, Arioka, Yamada, Takaki, Nakajima
SUMMARY: Hatred turned to love, silence turned to seeking and lies become truth. Kota just hit the rock bottom making him realize that memories should not remained unlock. He seek for truth, he yearned for what really happened and why things are going this and that. But what if he is going further to what is already near to him? Is everything gone too late to change? Everyone is given curiosity and so will you open the box as well?
AUTHOR'S NOTE: This is the revised version of my on going fanfic Pandora's Box. Enjoy^___^
Pandora's Box
Chapter 4
"Hair"
His voice keeps on echoing in my ears, piercing my heart till it bleed.
“Are you sure you want to cut your hair that short? Your hair is so lovely and it’s a waste.” The barber asked Ryosuke as he sit down and look at himself in the mirror.
“Yes I am sure about it.” Ryosuke said monotonously as he seriously stares at his reflection. Deep inside his mind he was talking to that old Ryosuke that will say goodbye soon. Since child he already wore an eyeglass and he always have long hair which was the reason why his classmates teased him, calling him nerdy and a geek, but he didn’t change his image because there was a certain someone that told him he looks great the way he is. For years he hold on to that words and so he never tried to change how he looks even there are people who look down on him. As long as that guy was always at his side and accepting how he looks like he will just cover his ears and eyes from what other people see and say. He live a life just like that but then the time that he realized he can’t live his life like he used to forever finally arrived.
The barber give him a deep sigh and then he started to comb his hair but then he hesitated on cutting it. He asked again if Ryosuke was serious about his decision and he just nod down like an obedient puppy. As Ryosuke heard the first snip of the scissor that cut the first strands of his hair, all memories flashed on his mind. His voice on his ear, his face on his eyes and that last confession he did on his mind. Without noticing it, tears starts to fall from his eyes as the barber continued to cut his hair. Long years of loving someone just ended like that.
Ryosuke went back home with his new hair and everyone inside his own house was so shocked about his extravagant transformation. His 3 big sisters talked about it all the time wondering what happened to their one and only little brother that he decided to change his image for his last year in high school. They are even more surprised when their mother told them that Ryosuke asked her to order for contact lenses since he didn’t want to wear glasses anymore. They even made an international call to their father who was working abroad to tell what is happening to Ryosuke coz it was really a shocked to them.
As Rysouke step inside the classroom on the first day of school, everyone’s eyes fastened on him and it was obvious that they were all shocked and surprised with what their eyes perceived. Even Kei and HIkaru, who is his best friends, cannot believed that their nerdy friend suddenly became an stunning bishounen. He was not used to with the attention but for some reason he didn’t hate it. Everyone’s view towards him changes and now they are not looking down on him anymore but they are admiring him instead.
The next day Ryosuke was assigned to be the next class president of their class. Everyone agreed because of his great accomplishment when they were second year. He is the one who did all the planning on last year’s festival and they won as the best class’s booth because of his knowledgeable and skillful ideas. He, together with Alen who is his secretary, both attended the meeting that afternoon where other class presidents were to come.
Like when he entered their classroom before, everyone was also staring at him when he and Alen entered the meeting room. The faces are just the same, it seems like other class also retained the same class presidents as what they have before to lessen the hassle of choosing a new one. Alen and Ryosuke sit down at the same time when another group of boys entered the classroom and it was Yuya together with Krono, who was last year’s Class 2-C president.
Ryosuke and Yuya’s eye met each other but Ryosuke immediately avert it away from him. Yuya was about to sit down on the vacant chair in front of him but then Krono grabbed him to his collar and dragged him towards Ryosuke’s seats. Actually Alen and Krono are best friends and they are separated for the first time this year. “So you are someone else secretary this year.” Krono said as he stared at Ryosuke. “You look different. Did you have heartbreak so you cut your hair?” he asked Rysouke as he sit down besides Alen.
“It’s not like that.” Ryosuke answered him.
“Really? Then why are you blushing?” Krono teased, since before he already love teasing Rysouke. “Yuya, aren’t the two of you best friends? Why don’t you tell me what is the reason behind? I’m curious…”
“Stop teasing him.” Yuya told Krono and so the class president pouted and he just talk to Alen.
While Alen and Krono are busy talking to each other Yuya and Ryosuke remained in silence in their own sit. They are like that until the head of the student’s council who is the speaker came together with his other subordinates and started the meeting immediately. They talk about the usual stuffs like the class attendance, maintenance of cleanliness in the school, controlling student’s behavior and other stuffs that are related to the student’s welfare and improvement while they are in the school. Ryosuke was busy writing everything on his notes while Yuya falls asleep. He really didn’t want to be the secretary but Krono joined him in that mess and so he doesn’t have any choice.
After an hour, finally the meeting was over. Krono asked if Alen and Rysouke wanted to join their class in a party but Ryosuke refused telling them that he still have something to do which is obviously just an excused to escape from them. Alen come with them since he already misses his old class.
…
Yuya and his new found friends decided to have a party. They went to a nearby restaurant where they ordered anything they wanted to eat. There are 10 of them who are there and of course Alen was included to that count. Yuya was troubled when it’s just the first day since he was separated to his best friends but as he mingle now with those boys he think that they are not hard to be friend with and they are jolly and really manly since some of them already have their girlfriends.
“When did that girl answer you?” Krono asked Alen who was sitting besides Yuya. “Vacation?”
“Yup… we meet and dated and then finally she give me the yes and now were officially dating.” He answered. “Yuya… do you have a girlfriend?” he asked as he look at Yuya who was busy eating his food.
“I don’t have.” Yuya answered honestly.
“Ha? With that look you don’t have a girlfriend? Don’t tell me you NEVER have a girlfriend before?” Krono asked him.
“Is there something wrong with that?”
“Seriously?” the three guys asked all the same time and they even make their faces closer to their friend.
“Yeah… it’s not a requirement to have a girlfriend in the school right? So why do I need to have one. It’s not like I am not interested with relationship but maybe you can say that I am the type who believes that my first one should be the last one.”
The three chuckled and then later on they laugh out loud. Alen tap Yuya’s shoulder as he nod his head “That sounds corny coming from you. But I am serious with the girl I am dating right now and she is my first too and I hope she will be my last as well.”
“Appearance wise…. Yuya really looks like someone who loves to flirt.” Another guy told him.
“I agree… I agree.”
“But there is a girl that you like? It’s impossible that there is no one you are interested in right now right?”
Yuya put down the juice that he is drinking on the table and pause for a moment before they give them a reply. “Yeah I do have…” he answered without hesitation.
“What school then? Tell us… tell us…we will rate her for you. You are really good looking and rich so we are thinking that you have a really high level of likeness towards girl and you are popular too.” Krono told him.
“It’s a secret.“ Yuya told them and then he smirk as the boys look at him with frustration.
…
If there is one moment in his life that he wanted to turn back and change, then he only have one answer to that. As Ryosuke flipped the pages of his notebook, it stopped to a page where there is a picture stocked. He turned it back and saw that It was his picture when he is in his Grade 4 and Yuya was together with him, smiling widely like there is no tomorrow. It is the first picture of the two of them and he was really happy when it was taken by his big sister.
Yuya and Ryosuke didn’t start as friends. Actually Yuya is one of the boys who bully Ryosuke all the time saying that he was a nerd, geek and ugly. He is part of those students who throw his things away, vandalized his desk and lockers and even throw bad words towards him. Yuya is the guy that Ryosuke hated the most.
But everything change when he was in Year 4 when some guys in other section wanted to throw egg towards him and so he run away. He run away from those students chasing after him and hide himself at the back of the school near the storage room and to his surprised he saw Yuya there crying his tears out. He was shocked and didn’t know what to do. He never had seen Yuya in that state and he just look at him for a moment without saying anything at all. When Yuya noticed his presence he stand up and immediately wipe his tears away and then glare at Ryosuke like he will going to eat him. “Did you see that?” Yuya asked him.
“I… I…” Ryosuke stammered but he startled when Yuya suddenly push him.
“If you tell someone that you saw me cry I’m going to shave your head and embarrassed you to the whole students here. Understand?” Yuya ordered him. Ryosuke was not able to answer back because of fear and he just watch as Yuya leave that place.
That was not the last time that he saw Yuya in that state. For some odd reason Ryosuke always saw Yuya whenever he is down and sad. That time he started to realize that even a stone hearted guy like Yuya can be so soft looking whenever he is crying.
One day he found out the reason why he was always like that. In a parent’s teacher activity in the school, Yuya is the only one who don’t have parents that came by. His teacher was asking where his parents are but he was not answering to him and he just give him a glare. The teacher scolded him because of his bad act but Yuya just walk out of the room where he accidentally bump Ryosuke who was silently listening to them that time and he saw him with teary eyes.
Ryosuke follow after Yuya as he run away and that time the snow was falling from the skies and it was really cold and freezing. Ryosuke forgot his coat and his gloves and he was really cold but even so he still chase after Yuya.
“Stop following me.” Yuya shouted on him when he noticed Ryosuke following him.
“Bu…but… you are…”
“What? Are you going to laugh at me coz I am the only one who don’t have parents who come to that event? Yes… my parents didn’t love me at all and because of that they don’t come”
“Why will I laugh at you?” Ryosuke asked him back. “I mean… I am not used to that… I am used to being bullied by you.”
“Huh? Are you a masochist? Leave me alone already. I don’t want your pity.”
“But you forget your coat. Let’s go back inside already.”
“You go back alone. Your mother is waiting for you right? No one was waiting for me there.” Yuya said but he was shocked when he felt a cold hand holding him. He didn’t noticed that Rysouke was already besides him that time and he was shivering. “Let’s go back Takaki.”
“Why are you following me? why are you doing this?”
“Cause you are so cute that I can’t abandon you.” Ryosuke smiled back at him and that answer made Yuya shut up and just agreed on what Ryosuke was telling him. The two of them went back to the school where they were taken care by Rysouke’s mother who scold them for going outside without wearing any sweater and gloves. Yuya was wondering why Ryosuke’s mother was so nice to him even he was not her son but when he was hug by Ryosuke’s mother he felt so warm and felt good.
The next day Yuya told Ryosuke about the situation of his family. He was an adopted son of the Takaki couple who thought they will never have a child anymore and so they decided to adopt. But 3 years after Yuya was officialy adopted by the couple, a baby girl was born. Since that day Yuya was always jealous to the legal child because his parents take care of her differently as they take care of him. He thought that he was not love and he was just a third party in that house and that’s the reason he was always depressed.
After that talk the two became closer to each other which surprised the whole class. There was a time when Rysouke was being bullied and Yuya defended him and told those bully to stop doing it. Ryosuke thought that Yuya was his knight in shining armor that time and he just didn’t realized that he was already falling for him.
And he just realized his feelings for him when Yuya told him. “I like your long hair. It really suits you.”
Since that day, Ryosuke decided that he will not cut his hair and he will maintain it since he was complemented by Yuya for the first time. Days passed by so fast. Kei transferred to their school when they are in Year 6 and because of his kindness he was easily accepted by the students and Yuya was not an exemtion. He became Kei’s friend as well, actually they really become close friend since they have the same hobby, they both love reading books.
When they reached junior high, HIkaru and Daiki became their classmate and the group becomes bigger. Ryosuke was not bullied anymore because he have friends that protect him but Yuya’s attention was divided into more people. He feels bad about the growing distance between them but he can’t blame anyone. It’s part of life to have a circle of friends.
If there is one moment in his life that Rysouke wanted to change then that is the time that he hide at the back of the school yard and saw Yuya’s tears. If he didn’t saw that then Yuya will just remain as an enemy to his eyes and then he will never realized that he was in love with him. And if he didn’t realized that he is in love with him then he will not be hurt like what he is feeling that time.
Before their second year comes to an end, Ryosuke’s bottled feelings for Yuya were overflowing. All the feelings wanted to get out of his chest and wanted to reach the person it always speak to. As he collects all his courage to confessed, he invited Yuya at the rooftop of their school and with all his might he confessed his true feelings for him.
“I love you… I love Yuya. Ple…please go out with me.” Ryosuke confessed with his red face and very loud thumping sound of his heart. He planned to say something else before he finally said the word but since he was too nervous he went straight to the point of his confession.
“Wh…what?” Yuya asked him back, shocked and puzzled.
“I like you. I know this is so sudden but this feelings that I have for you is not new anymore. Since our junior days, even in our elementary years I… I always…” Ryosuke tried to explained making sure that his feelings will reach Yuya even a little.
“Ryo…I didn’t know that you think of me this way but… I only… I only consider you as a friend.” Yuya replied back.
Ryosuke somewhat knew that his confession will end up like that, rejected. Even how special his treatment towards Yuya, the other one will only just consider him as a friend and nothing else. But despite of everything, he still hold onto the hope that even just a little bit Yuya was feeling the same way as he did. All those kindness he showed him, all those treatment that he received from him, he thought that behind it there is some spark going on but he just overestimated the situation and expected something impossible to happen. Yeah, how will a prince like Yuya falls for someone like him who only experience bullying because of his looks since he was child. How will two ends meet in that situation?
Also for a long time that they are together he observed something about Yuya. The most hated part when you love someone is when he likes someone else. He was not sure about it but he was speculating that he have someone he likes and he already have an idea who could it be but because of fear of knowing the truth he just remained silent and never tried to ask but now… he wanted to know the truth.
“By…by any chance do you like someone else?” Ryosuke asked bravely though at the back of his mind he wanted to cover his ear and refuse to hear what Yuya is about to say.
“I have.” Yuya answered back.
“Who is she? Who is this someone?” Ryosuke asked him again. The pain is accumulating deep inside his heart but he was suppressing himself so that he will not cry in front of Yuya.
“It’s better if you don’t know.”
“Why?” he asked softly. “Why can’t it be me?” he sniffed.
Ryosuke put the picture on his drawer and close it. It’s painful for him to remember that rejection that he experienced and also to know who is that someone that Yuya likes more than him. He went to his bed and jump over it facing the ceiling. If only forgetting is like bubbles popping in just a few seconds and will never be formed again then how life would be easy for him. It’s been months since that confession and he was really trying his best to forget about him but every time their paths intersect whenever they are at school all those feelings that crumbled into pieces suddenly builds up again.
He covered his eyes with his right hand and as darkness filled his visions his mind is on the journey of knowing what he need to do. He can’t stay like that forever, he can’t love someone who doesn’t like him coz he know he will just be hurt. But… what can he do? Even his mind contradicts his heart he still wanted to take the same path all over again. Even he will be hurt repeatedly he still wanted to stay on Yuya’s side.
“Why can’t it be me?”
“Coz its Kei… It’s Kei who I like.”