im being a hypocrite....whoops!
I found somethign i wrote a long time ago on my computer while going through some files and i thot it was pretty okay poem wise. of course i can totally see you all going blehck wat is this shit. haha well okay here it is. BE NICE lol
this feelgin that i feel
it doesnt feel real
caught between two extremes
one of love one of friendship
i dunno wat i want
in one hand i hold your hand
never want to let it go
want you to hold me and never leave
sacrafice my life and everythign for you
i see it in my mind
it comforts me whenever i need hope
but in the other is the past
a past that i dont want to repeat with you
im finally happy just being friends with you
i have other feelings that tear my heart
regret, love, lust, they all haunt me
but somehow im safe
ive let go
at least i think i let go
but then why are the images still there
why do they still comfort me
its as if i kno that someday
you and me will be a we
but it doesnt botehr me now
im not afraid of losign you because i kno
i kno that ill have my chance again
it might not be soon
but i think that it will come
it scares me
i kno it would scare you if i told you
so ill keep this to myself
my dirty little secret
from the eyes of anyone
its not a painful secret begging to be let out
its actualy one im glad to keep
so wat exactly have i concluded?
that friends is okay.
we are friends.
we are not complicated
we are just us
i am me
you are you
we are seperate as people
but connected as friends
not the connection as an "item"
its deeper.
high school labels dont effect us
life labels have judged us
free to be together in comfort.
we worked backwards.
but no matter the way
we got there.
wow reading this over its kinda bearing my whole soul out there. jeez its really blunt and everything. but im sick of hiding everythign inside. i really really am. this is how i feel and your just going to have to deal with that.
this feelgin that i feel
it doesnt feel real
caught between two extremes
one of love one of friendship
i dunno wat i want
in one hand i hold your hand
never want to let it go
want you to hold me and never leave
sacrafice my life and everythign for you
i see it in my mind
it comforts me whenever i need hope
but in the other is the past
a past that i dont want to repeat with you
im finally happy just being friends with you
i have other feelings that tear my heart
regret, love, lust, they all haunt me
but somehow im safe
ive let go
at least i think i let go
but then why are the images still there
why do they still comfort me
its as if i kno that someday
you and me will be a we
but it doesnt botehr me now
im not afraid of losign you because i kno
i kno that ill have my chance again
it might not be soon
but i think that it will come
it scares me
i kno it would scare you if i told you
so ill keep this to myself
my dirty little secret
from the eyes of anyone
its not a painful secret begging to be let out
its actualy one im glad to keep
so wat exactly have i concluded?
that friends is okay.
we are friends.
we are not complicated
we are just us
i am me
you are you
we are seperate as people
but connected as friends
not the connection as an "item"
its deeper.
high school labels dont effect us
life labels have judged us
free to be together in comfort.
we worked backwards.
but no matter the way
we got there.
wow reading this over its kinda bearing my whole soul out there. jeez its really blunt and everything. but im sick of hiding everythign inside. i really really am. this is how i feel and your just going to have to deal with that.