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yknow what dude. you wanna write in your xanga. then here is my fucking answer jame. I don't know WHAT THE FUCK you think you said on the phone to me thursday night, but from what i clearly remember, i was walking home from the bus stop with mike and you told me "katie, i can't hang out tonight because i have to close" and i was like okay whatever, no fucking surprise. its raining anyways so i suggested that we'd exchange presents sometime during the week. and you said "okay, im sure ill see you sometime during the vaca" so okay. there you go. THATS WHAT I HEARD. i never said its too cold out. maybe you're just making up excuses because it's getting to you that i hang out with billy instead of you, because you're never AROUND???? I've been working for the past two weeks. and i'm always around after work. we were supposed to chill on weds. WHO COULDNT DO IT? YOU. not me. you. so what did i do. i fucking diddled myself at home. then thursday. you couldnt hang out again. so instead of rounding off the week with another diddling at home, i went to hang out with billy, whom is always around. unlike someone else. YEAH AND I KNOW that you got RESPONSIBILITIES. stop using that as a lame excuse not to see your real friends. so does everyone else. but i still make time to fucking chill with billy. greenridge is RIGHT around the corner, and my cell phone is too. the only phone calls i get from you are to tell me you cant go through with our plans. so if you wanna fight over this stupid shit, saying that i never call you. that's bullshit. because i ring up your celly all the fucking time, and you know it. then i get a phone call from you a day later. saying your phone was off (another surprise?) or you were at work. oh yeah and all the other times you call me, are when you're at work, on break, or at kevins house. oh yay. is that the only time you could fucking fit me into your schedule of going to the mall with whomever, and having kevin pick you up? so nice to have a fucking best friend who fucking ditches you for a car ride. thanks alot dude. i think i will stick to hanging out with billy. and the next time you call me. i WILL tell you to go fuck yourself and say its too cold out, since im way too cool for you. i think youre the one whos too fucking cool for me anymore. thanks for going to the hazen st concert with me this thursday. or did you just tell me you dont wanna go, because mikes going? or because you think they REALLY NEED you at burger king that night? because youre a fucking crew chief and you sit there and do nothing anyways? why dont you just fucking RUN burger king already dude? get OVER yourself. they dont need you THAT BADLY that if you dont fucking work because you have plans with me for one night, the whole BK industry is going to suddenly crash because JAMIELYNN SEGUINE COULDNT WORK! theres some fucking hidden reason of why you dont wanna go, and youre using burger king as a lame way to cover it up. im sure if someone else called you and asked you to chill, you would have jumped at the oppurtunity. and that mkaes me feel REALLLL good. thanx dude. im so glad you're my "BEST FRIEND" maybe i was for the past few years. but right this second i dont have any best friends.
If it makes you less sad, I'll move out of the state. You can keep to yourself. I'll keep out of your way. And if it makes you less sad, I'll take your pictures all down. Every picture you paint, I will paint myself out. It's cold as a tomb, and it's dark in your room, when I sneak to your bed to pour salt in your wounds. So call it quits or get a grip. Say you wanted a solution. You just wanted to be missed. Call me a safe bet. I'm betting I'm not.