First entry
Guess There's no point in having one of these if I'm going to write my thoughts and feelings on DA. Buuut DA depresses me whenever I log on so I won't post there for awhile. You guys should embrace yourself for a Big Wall o Text and lots and lots of complaining. Well I've been kinda depressed, confused, lost, pretty much any bad adjective that comes to mind. Still haven't gotten into the military yet and I finally got around to writing a letter to my ex girlfriend Bianca. *sighs* I so hate being single .-. . Sure I Don't have to worry about heartbreak and things are simpler, but I love the complexity. I love having someone to please and I love waiting around and saying sweet stuff to someone. I miss the rush from the excitement of being near someone. Well not actually near since I'm normally in a long distance relationship. I'm still confused about my last relationship with my recent ex though. She said she wanted to be friends and that she loved me still, but after we broke up she stopped talking to me. I just don't understand. That's why it makes me depressed to get on DA. Everything that reminds me of her makes me tear up. I wish I could talk to her about it. I just want to have a nice talk with her. Aside from that I've been decent. Best friend has been a jerk to me for no reason though. I'm trying to open up to more people so I'm not so clingy to the friends I have. OH. Over the past few days I made a new friend :3. Well not a new friend. I met her awhile ago, but now we're really talking. I know her as SilverIris, but I call her Iris for short, sometimes silvi. I call her Iris because it reminds me of megaman <3. Iris is Zero's only ever love interest (Zero is from the series megaman X for all you non gamers). Such a sad story really. Makes me cry everytime, but I won't talk about it because i don't want to spoil anything. She's pretty cool actually :3. Hopefully we'll become good friends ^^. Well I guess we are now so maybe better friends. Right now I'm just looking around at private servers with her. Should be fun. Well I'm not sure what else to write about. I'll probably be back later.