Hmph.
So, it's 1:30 in the morning, and I'm really tired, but I can't sleep. What's wrong with me? I honestly feel like I'm about to pass out, but when I lay down I just lay there thinking and staring at the black wall listening to the fan blowing.
I think I might go take a shower and see if that helps me any.
I just had a conversation with Eric, and things are so weird between us! It's like we talked about sex so much before that now it's akward with us, because he has a girlfriend. He doesn't mind talking about that with me still, and he brings stuff like that up all the time, but I feel weird. I don't know Libby (his gf), but she seemed like a nice girl the one time I met her, and so I don't want to get in the way of their relationship. Eric has been through some crazy shit in his life, and he has always had a problem with relationships, and he has a good one. I don't want to mess this up for them.
His dad left when he was little so he never got to see that boy/girl interaction while he was growing up. He has a problem with understanding his emotions as well. He just doesn't ever know what he wants. Well he obviously found someone/thing he wants, and I'm going to leave him alone.
I told him I want us to stay friends, because he is an amazing guy, and I trust him with my heart, and life, and I don't want to lose that. He's graduating soon, and I live 1200 miles away, so I don't really know what the future holds. I honestly don't see us staying in touch. Tonight was the first time in about 2 weeks we talked, and we used to talk at least once, if not more, everyday!
I just hate losing people I care so much about.
I'm about to pass out, hopefully this time I will be able to sleep.
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I think I might go take a shower and see if that helps me any.
I just had a conversation with Eric, and things are so weird between us! It's like we talked about sex so much before that now it's akward with us, because he has a girlfriend. He doesn't mind talking about that with me still, and he brings stuff like that up all the time, but I feel weird. I don't know Libby (his gf), but she seemed like a nice girl the one time I met her, and so I don't want to get in the way of their relationship. Eric has been through some crazy shit in his life, and he has always had a problem with relationships, and he has a good one. I don't want to mess this up for them.
His dad left when he was little so he never got to see that boy/girl interaction while he was growing up. He has a problem with understanding his emotions as well. He just doesn't ever know what he wants. Well he obviously found someone/thing he wants, and I'm going to leave him alone.
I told him I want us to stay friends, because he is an amazing guy, and I trust him with my heart, and life, and I don't want to lose that. He's graduating soon, and I live 1200 miles away, so I don't really know what the future holds. I honestly don't see us staying in touch. Tonight was the first time in about 2 weeks we talked, and we used to talk at least once, if not more, everyday!
I just hate losing people I care so much about.
I'm about to pass out, hopefully this time I will be able to sleep.
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New video
My secret...