News Flash.......My Life as it Sits....
Ok....understanding is out of the picture....im to lost for my own good....i thought i could make it less confusing and get all this bullshit sorted out but you know im guessing that that wasnt what was meant to be....it was meant to be all fucked up and pissy in the end..im to tired to explain myself anymore....its getting to the point where when i do try to..... i sound like im a fucking retard i get tounge tied and shit due to saying it to damn much....no ones faults here not a blame game sorta thing....just dont feel like trying anymore in this certain subject....RELATIONSHIPS.....i dont think that i should take all this time explaining myself and my reasonings for not doing something....it should just be spontanous.....ive been trying to make it that way but it doesnt seem i can do it without alwaz putting up a defense or a fight....I DONT WANT TO HAVE TO PUT UP A FIGHT ALL THE TIME AND OR CONSTANTLY HAVE TO PUSH PEOPLE AWAY but i guess im not that good with words as everyone says.....for it alwaz ends like this......eh maybe everyone shouls jus .........NOT GET ATTECHED TO ME!!!! OR MAYBE I SHOULD JUS RUN FROM EVERYTHING THAT COMES MY WAY....all i know is dont come to me to when all there is to do is defend youself.....im sick of all the sorrys im sick of all the ooo its ok.....i dont want to have to explain every movement i take....i dont want to be tied down to something when im NOT....and i definitely dont want to lose anymore friends... but eh it goes the way it goes`and its`went so its done......im sorry.....