"Does anyone understand me...no, no one understands me"
Ok wow.....today was amazing...well actually let me start from the beginning...it was ok in the morn when i woke up at like 1 o clock...and i took my shower and did every morning thing...then i got like 95% of my homework done considering that i have school tommorow...but before i get that other 5% done my sister calls and all of a sudden were going tanning ....so im like ok..kool...so courtney gets here,we all go tanning..and we drop mom off @ home and me courtney and molly go do some fun stuff....first we go to Barnes and noble and then mom calls and says she got courtneys best buy money back on her card so we drop everything and run over to best buy and see if thats all good and done...sure enough...It was!! And she got her money and a 12 dollar discount hehe...so were all cool,molly buys her dvd's and we go back to Barnes and Noble and look around. Me and Courtney go look for books on aura's and molly jus sorta dissapears lol :P Me and courtney finally find like ONE book on aura's and luckily we like it so we grab it and go find molly...we go to the magazines and actually look for what we came for ( Courtneys Guitar mag.) but never found it so we decide to go to the mall and look in there book stores...we get there..we pass the food court and all our stomachs start growling at us...but we jus keep going..we go to one side of the mall but that book store closed..I Guess!! lol :-/ Then we go to the other side of the mall to Walden Books and the magazine is not there either so we give up...but sorta dont have a choice..its 6 o clock and courtney and molly have school at 7...so we have to get back to lancaster, drop me off, and then they have to go back home and get ready for school and still get there on time..(Good Luck)
So we finally get to my house at around 6:25 and they drop me off and leave..(that is after making plans for the beach tommorow)Then i get home at i call Ray immediatly ( for i missed him too much) then we made plans for him coming over and going to look at a cadillac he wanted...but before that he told me that he wasnt having a good day and that anything could jus piss him off tonight...so i was already sketchy about the night but i still went on with it to give it a try even tho somewhere inside of me had a really bad feeling about the whole thing..like something was going to turn tonight into a big ass argument...sure enough i think you all can guess...we did....all night we were yelling and being smartasses to eachother but it ended up the greatest night..due to i gained his Full Trust..he finally opened up to me...and let me in....wow things can jus turn around out of nowhere and surprise the hell out of you..well thats at least what it did to me...i would of never guessed that he would ever say those things to me...he let go of his tough guy attitude and totally went softie on me...he said he wanted my help he wanted me to help heal his heart thats been hurt to many times...he said the only reason he protects me and is soooo damn protective...is becuz hes afraid of losing me...for hes been fucked with to many times that way and he doesnt want to lose me like them becuz he loves me to much....he says hes giving me his complete heart and his full trust and to not let him down...hes relying on me " Please dont hurt me" he says :( it was sooo sad....
So we finally get to my house at around 6:25 and they drop me off and leave..(that is after making plans for the beach tommorow)Then i get home at i call Ray immediatly ( for i missed him too much) then we made plans for him coming over and going to look at a cadillac he wanted...but before that he told me that he wasnt having a good day and that anything could jus piss him off tonight...so i was already sketchy about the night but i still went on with it to give it a try even tho somewhere inside of me had a really bad feeling about the whole thing..like something was going to turn tonight into a big ass argument...sure enough i think you all can guess...we did....all night we were yelling and being smartasses to eachother but it ended up the greatest night..due to i gained his Full Trust..he finally opened up to me...and let me in....wow things can jus turn around out of nowhere and surprise the hell out of you..well thats at least what it did to me...i would of never guessed that he would ever say those things to me...he let go of his tough guy attitude and totally went softie on me...he said he wanted my help he wanted me to help heal his heart thats been hurt to many times...he said the only reason he protects me and is soooo damn protective...is becuz hes afraid of losing me...for hes been fucked with to many times that way and he doesnt want to lose me like them becuz he loves me to much....he says hes giving me his complete heart and his full trust and to not let him down...hes relying on me " Please dont hurt me" he says :( it was sooo sad....