hopeless thoughts from an 18 year old romantic
dear livejournal,
once again i write during the wee hours of the morning, when my mind is buzzing and spinning in every direction.
I wish i could just let everythng go, and not care.
Oh but i do, i do.
my emotions and thoughts are circling around me like crazy
i honestly dont know what to think or feel.
i know and realize that certain gestures people do dont mean as much as they used too or for that matter as much as id like.
theres a feeling inside i dont understand. why is it there basically. and then i deny it.
Overall livejournal, im sick of being hurt. im sick of getting hopes up, and having them come crashing down. a part of me wants to give up, say fuck it, and not care abt anyone and just be alone. the other part wants me to hang on, and hope for the best. that part wants someone to hug, someone to talk to on the phone when the rest of your friends are moody, someone to defend me and then laugh with me.
its the inside struggle that is killing me. im sure im not alone, but i do believe that if everyone just said how they feel and put it out in the open, life would be easier on everyone.
once again i write during the wee hours of the morning, when my mind is buzzing and spinning in every direction.
I wish i could just let everythng go, and not care.
Oh but i do, i do.
my emotions and thoughts are circling around me like crazy
i honestly dont know what to think or feel.
i know and realize that certain gestures people do dont mean as much as they used too or for that matter as much as id like.
theres a feeling inside i dont understand. why is it there basically. and then i deny it.
Overall livejournal, im sick of being hurt. im sick of getting hopes up, and having them come crashing down. a part of me wants to give up, say fuck it, and not care abt anyone and just be alone. the other part wants me to hang on, and hope for the best. that part wants someone to hug, someone to talk to on the phone when the rest of your friends are moody, someone to defend me and then laugh with me.
its the inside struggle that is killing me. im sure im not alone, but i do believe that if everyone just said how they feel and put it out in the open, life would be easier on everyone.