yeah thats life...
eh...i think it has been one of those days....no better, one of those weeks. i have been feeling out of it the past few days or so. i think i have really been thinking, and i haven't done anything to stop it. but maybe i just need a good day or two to think, and maybe i will be able to figure out everything. i hate the feeling i get, i end up feeling so confused. but i all i want to do is get over being confused. for once in my life i want things to just fall in place. one of these days it will happen...but i am hoping later will come soon.
we dyed more blonde streaks in my hair tonight. we being calli, and lisa sitting there entertaining me. i like it. i wanted more streaks through out, but i can live with what i got. maybe i will get some more compliments this time, since i only got a few last time. maybe people weren't ready for a change in me, though it wasn't so much as a change, but more me finally really trying express myself. or maybe people don't really care to notice me..eh, whatever works for them. i am not going to let stupid people get me down. i have pretty new hair...yay....hehe.
i am not sure if my poetry is really helping right now. but i am trying to use it, so that i am not keeping it all in again. cause keeping it all in, is really no fun at all. i love writing poetry. i've actually written a few good ones...but that is just my opinion. its also nice to read other people's poetry. i love how sometime he/she can grasp what i am thinking. its nice to know that i am not alone in my thoughts.
i think i have found my favorite song of the moment. i shall leave you with this....
"New American Classic"
"We've got to get better," I said, "It's all in your head."
We could live through these letters or forget it all together
See the months they don't matter it's the days I can't take
When the hours move to minutes and I'm seconds away
Just ask the question come untie the knot
Say you won't care, say you won't care
Retrace the steps as if we forgot
Say you won't care, say you won't care
Try to avoid it but there's not a doubt
And there's one thing I can do nothing about
When all that we need is just a reaction
It's too much to ask for when there's no attraction anymore
If chasing our dreams is just a distraction
I want to remember when I know that I can't go back
Just ask the question come untie the knot
Say you won't care, say you won't care
Retrace the steps as if we forgot
Say you won't care, say you won't care
Try to avoid it (try to avoid it) but there's not a doubt
There's one thing I can do nothing
There's one thing I can do nothing
There's one thing I can do nothing about.
Just ask the question (just ask the question) come untie the knot
Say you won't care, say you won't care
Retrace the steps (retrace the steps) as if we forgot
Say you won't care, say you won't care
Try to avoid it (try to avoid it) but there's not a doubt
And there's one thing I can do nothing
There's one thing I can do nothing
There's one thing I can do nothing about.
we dyed more blonde streaks in my hair tonight. we being calli, and lisa sitting there entertaining me. i like it. i wanted more streaks through out, but i can live with what i got. maybe i will get some more compliments this time, since i only got a few last time. maybe people weren't ready for a change in me, though it wasn't so much as a change, but more me finally really trying express myself. or maybe people don't really care to notice me..eh, whatever works for them. i am not going to let stupid people get me down. i have pretty new hair...yay....hehe.
i am not sure if my poetry is really helping right now. but i am trying to use it, so that i am not keeping it all in again. cause keeping it all in, is really no fun at all. i love writing poetry. i've actually written a few good ones...but that is just my opinion. its also nice to read other people's poetry. i love how sometime he/she can grasp what i am thinking. its nice to know that i am not alone in my thoughts.
i think i have found my favorite song of the moment. i shall leave you with this....
"New American Classic"
"We've got to get better," I said, "It's all in your head."
We could live through these letters or forget it all together
See the months they don't matter it's the days I can't take
When the hours move to minutes and I'm seconds away
Just ask the question come untie the knot
Say you won't care, say you won't care
Retrace the steps as if we forgot
Say you won't care, say you won't care
Try to avoid it but there's not a doubt
And there's one thing I can do nothing about
When all that we need is just a reaction
It's too much to ask for when there's no attraction anymore
If chasing our dreams is just a distraction
I want to remember when I know that I can't go back
Just ask the question come untie the knot
Say you won't care, say you won't care
Retrace the steps as if we forgot
Say you won't care, say you won't care
Try to avoid it (try to avoid it) but there's not a doubt
There's one thing I can do nothing
There's one thing I can do nothing
There's one thing I can do nothing about.
Just ask the question (just ask the question) come untie the knot
Say you won't care, say you won't care
Retrace the steps (retrace the steps) as if we forgot
Say you won't care, say you won't care
Try to avoid it (try to avoid it) but there's not a doubt
And there's one thing I can do nothing
There's one thing I can do nothing
There's one thing I can do nothing about.