My night
Well....That was odd? Ok so it was a normal night blah blah nothing exciting happened, I talked to Kate we laughed, I myspaced, I made this pretty little collage
...Then Britteny IMs me with some DAMN nice things to say about me. :). I believe she used the words "annoying" "pity-friend" and more :) ...so Yea tonight was fun ^^ ...ok sarcasim over...I'm incrediablly broken...lonely...and confused... I know WHY Britt said those things. It's like what Gunn said to Fred when he was about to get his soul taken from him because of a deal he made years ago. He did it so that she wouldn't miss him.. How the hell did Fred forgive him? Even if the things he said were because he cared.. I can't be friends with her anymore.. It's not even like she just said thigns about me though...I would've been fine with her doing that because she cared....she had to bring Leo into it... Sometimes I just wish I could wave my finger and zap myself out of the universe...somewhere safe and away from pain... Then I realize that's Heaven that I'm thinking of and that that's suicidal and I snap out of it and try to deal with the pain. It's all so overwhelming...the akwardness at home...the lonliness in my heart...the misunderstandings with my friends... sometimes I feel like it would be easier to be Fred...Just be trapped in a demon dimension for 5 years away from family and friends and love...Where I'm constantly on the run from demons who want to kill me because I escaped custody. Where I have to go around helping out any other human I can. Ew I hate this feeeeeeliiiing!!! Lonliness you need to go away now!! You aren't welcome here >:O!! Well that's it for now..I guess...
...Then Britteny IMs me with some DAMN nice things to say about me. :). I believe she used the words "annoying" "pity-friend" and more :) ...so Yea tonight was fun ^^ ...ok sarcasim over...I'm incrediablly broken...lonely...and confused... I know WHY Britt said those things. It's like what Gunn said to Fred when he was about to get his soul taken from him because of a deal he made years ago. He did it so that she wouldn't miss him.. How the hell did Fred forgive him? Even if the things he said were because he cared.. I can't be friends with her anymore.. It's not even like she just said thigns about me though...I would've been fine with her doing that because she cared....she had to bring Leo into it... Sometimes I just wish I could wave my finger and zap myself out of the universe...somewhere safe and away from pain... Then I realize that's Heaven that I'm thinking of and that that's suicidal and I snap out of it and try to deal with the pain. It's all so overwhelming...the akwardness at home...the lonliness in my heart...the misunderstandings with my friends... sometimes I feel like it would be easier to be Fred...Just be trapped in a demon dimension for 5 years away from family and friends and love...Where I'm constantly on the run from demons who want to kill me because I escaped custody. Where I have to go around helping out any other human I can. Ew I hate this feeeeeeliiiing!!! Lonliness you need to go away now!! You aren't welcome here >:O!! Well that's it for now..I guess...