A clarification...
Because it's been noted to me that I've been accused of posting what I posted yesterday to "stir people up" and "get them to cause problems at the blog I posted about".
Let me state, unequivocally, that I did NO such thing.
The reason I posted was because I was hurting. Because I felt violated. Because I was triggered heavily and I needed to say it SOMEWHERE. I STILL feel that way, today isn't any better than yesterday was. I still feel like I'm reliving things I shouldn't HAVE to relive because I went there...hoping for some shred of dignity. Some shred of evidence that these people have hearts, have even a modest amount of care for their fellow man. Something...anything.
And all I got was ripped to shreds for not carrying the same beliefs they did.
I'm sorry if I made anyone feel used in that. I'm sorry, so very, very sorry, if I made anyone feel like I was using them for my "agenda". I have NO agenda here. It's been several years since I was triggered that badly and it scared me. It terrified me to know it was still SO easy for those feelings to come back. For me to, once again, feel that tiny.
I needed somewhere to say it...somewhere that people might listen. And I chose here.
PLEASE know it was never my intention to cause problems with anyone and I am sorry.
Let me state, unequivocally, that I did NO such thing.
The reason I posted was because I was hurting. Because I felt violated. Because I was triggered heavily and I needed to say it SOMEWHERE. I STILL feel that way, today isn't any better than yesterday was. I still feel like I'm reliving things I shouldn't HAVE to relive because I went there...hoping for some shred of dignity. Some shred of evidence that these people have hearts, have even a modest amount of care for their fellow man. Something...anything.
And all I got was ripped to shreds for not carrying the same beliefs they did.
I'm sorry if I made anyone feel used in that. I'm sorry, so very, very sorry, if I made anyone feel like I was using them for my "agenda". I have NO agenda here. It's been several years since I was triggered that badly and it scared me. It terrified me to know it was still SO easy for those feelings to come back. For me to, once again, feel that tiny.
I needed somewhere to say it...somewhere that people might listen. And I chose here.
PLEASE know it was never my intention to cause problems with anyone and I am sorry.