change, again?
Okay so it's been one, two, three, four, five, six, seven.. seven days since me and david broke up. And well if you don't know the story, then whatever happened between him and me was all my fault, is what we discovered. Anyhow.. 2 days after i broke up with him this last thursday, i was at battle of the bands with some friends (including erin i <3 you) and the whole time i would try to talk to david, he would walk away. after i left i called his cell and of coarse he didn't pick up so i left him a message, "hey you did really good tonight, i just wanted to let you know.. call back if you feel like it." i get home that night, get online and of coarse, he was on. you know what really bugged me? was when he said "i didn't talk to you tonight because people would ask what happened between us and i would tell them the TRUTH, and they would call you a bitch and say that i should be mad at you." um well excuse me, if they told you to jump out of an airplane without a parachute on, would you do it? i hope your not that stupid. yeah well for all that called me 'bitch' well fuck you because you have no idea whats going on because truth, that boy never knows what he's talking about. anyways yesterday was a day of hoody's after school with david after things got a little better. it wasn't so much of a chatty conversation, but whatever. a little bit later, my loves steele and copple came and sat down with us. after a while david had to leave for his soccer game that was at 5:30. so it was me and steele left.. and what happens when im left with a good friend i trust? well i tell them what's going on in my life. i told him about how i don't think me and david should go out again, because i was afraid something bad would happen again and i would get the blame. of coarse, he understood the great friend he is and gave me some good advice (not to be mentioned) that night as i was talking to david his first question was, "do you even like me as a boyfriend?" and well i had to say no if i wanted him to know the truth. i thought he would be the kind of person who would understand, but all he did was come up with reasons to be mad at me. he wants me to feel like shit, and job well done. after a day (which makes it today) i don't give a shit anymore. i am not changing my mind anymore about what i think.. what i said was true and im sticking with that. if you don't like the decision i made, well im sorry. i told him last night that i would always be here for him whether he wanted me as a friend or not.. and what did he tell my best friend? he told her that i said to him i didnt want to be his friend. what kind of lame bull shit is that? i'll say, very lame. that's all i really have to say about this whole situation, and really i don't want to talk about it anymore. im moving on
<3 always,
elise marie
<3 always,
elise marie