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working on my divorce papers. (doing it myself.)
trying to figure out what to get logan for his fourth birthday in a couple weeks. (wow, how the hell did that happen?)
got these so far:
http://www.etsy.com/listing/74273822/sale-boys-magnetic-chalkboard
http://www.etsy.com/listing/75709458/bakers-dozen-solid-wood-toy-set
http://knoobies.com/Site/Welcome.html
(this last one bums me out because it's such an awesome idea, but made in china!!! booo! but i spent way too long trying to find knee and elbow pads somewhere besides the all-evil target or walmart, and just failed. ran out of steam.)
feeling mostly numb and exhausted all day every day. it's crazy that when you're raising kids - arguably the time in your life when you need to be at your utmost awesomest - that's when you are the most useless. i have lost probably a third or more of my brain power - can't write or speak for shit anymore - and am generally just a total loser these days. can't keep a clean house, can't accomplish anything in a reasonable amount of time, can't keep my cool or think straight, etc, etc, etc. omg. so hard.
tilly is awesome, though. she's got seven teeth (she'll be eight months next week) and is sitting up on her own finally. she's the chunkiest chunk of love you've ever seeeeen. so cute.
and logan is mostly cool. still super smart and sweet sometimes. but also sometimes evil. sucks to admit it because i feel totally defeated - what did i do wrong?! - but i'm hoping he grows out of this phase soon. it's hard to try to be completely attachment parenting / "gentle" discipline / etc, because basically i have no tools to work with when he acts in a way that i don't enjoy. i basically tell him how it makes me feel and he basically laughs in my face or stares at me blankly, and that's that. it's hard when you realize that the reason you behaved well as a child was purely out of fear. it sounds great to try to motivate your kid to act awesome out of love and respect, but in practice (at least so far) it doesn't work unless conditions are completely perfect (ie: only when he's not hungry/tired/angry/lonely/distracted/bored etc).
trying to figure out what to get logan for his fourth birthday in a couple weeks. (wow, how the hell did that happen?)
got these so far:
http://www.etsy.com/listing/74273822/sale-boys-magnetic-chalkboard
http://www.etsy.com/listing/75709458/bakers-dozen-solid-wood-toy-set
http://knoobies.com/Site/Welcome.html
(this last one bums me out because it's such an awesome idea, but made in china!!! booo! but i spent way too long trying to find knee and elbow pads somewhere besides the all-evil target or walmart, and just failed. ran out of steam.)
feeling mostly numb and exhausted all day every day. it's crazy that when you're raising kids - arguably the time in your life when you need to be at your utmost awesomest - that's when you are the most useless. i have lost probably a third or more of my brain power - can't write or speak for shit anymore - and am generally just a total loser these days. can't keep a clean house, can't accomplish anything in a reasonable amount of time, can't keep my cool or think straight, etc, etc, etc. omg. so hard.
tilly is awesome, though. she's got seven teeth (she'll be eight months next week) and is sitting up on her own finally. she's the chunkiest chunk of love you've ever seeeeen. so cute.
and logan is mostly cool. still super smart and sweet sometimes. but also sometimes evil. sucks to admit it because i feel totally defeated - what did i do wrong?! - but i'm hoping he grows out of this phase soon. it's hard to try to be completely attachment parenting / "gentle" discipline / etc, because basically i have no tools to work with when he acts in a way that i don't enjoy. i basically tell him how it makes me feel and he basically laughs in my face or stares at me blankly, and that's that. it's hard when you realize that the reason you behaved well as a child was purely out of fear. it sounds great to try to motivate your kid to act awesome out of love and respect, but in practice (at least so far) it doesn't work unless conditions are completely perfect (ie: only when he's not hungry/tired/angry/lonely/distracted/bored etc).