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Feb 04, 2009 21:05

i love free television on the internet. i'm not much for the actual tv, although i keep the cable for jamie, lest he have an aneurysm , but i prefer to pick and choose what i watch and when. my latest thing - which just ended five seconds ago - was season two of secret diary of a call girl which is deliciously trashy. i'm a sucker for accents, and this even made me want to visit london, a place previously absent from my list of "places i'm dying to go".

speaking of which, i'm thinking (or i should say fantasizing) more and more about wintering elsewhere. several things spring to mind: jamie's never traveled anywhere save our failed stints in arizona and maine; these next three winters are theoretically our last before logan starts school; winter here sucks; all i've wanted for years was to travel abroad.

of course there are many issues with this concept. not the least of which is where on earth could we live here during the summers? it would be great if i had the $25-grand they're asking for the houseboat in the harbor, and if jamie would swallow his pride and actually try living on one, but in the absence of that, i really can't think what we would do for summer housing. another issue is traveling with a toddler: not what it was in the years my parents did it with us. and then there's the fact that i really want another kid. not that i'm at all looking forward to starting this process over again, as it was without a doubt the most difficult thing i've ever done, but having two kids is decidedly easier than one as far as having each other to entertain rather than seeking me out for every single bit of amusement day and night. but, traveling with a toddler WHILE pregnant - doesn't sound all that easy. let alone with an infant. and then of course there's the money.

when i got pregnant i resigned myself to the thought of waiting approximately twenty years before heading off to foreign lands. now i realize i could probably plan to go sooner, but logistically that time isn't now. yet. we'll see.

i just think that i've been entirely too passive in the course of our relationship as far as where we've gone, what we've done, and what i've accepted. thinking more proactively is not only good for me and logan, but honestly - although i don't think he realizes it - jamie would probably really love it if i dragged him off somewhere.

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