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The most amazingly daunting and perilous thing.
To feel something in your instincts, the idea that maybe there is something out there that you would excel at. And I don't just mean above average, I mean extra ordinary, top of your class, renowned, famous. Just maybe. To not have a chance at that because of the slightest possible handicap. Why the fuck would anyone have gotten Beethoven a piano? Maybe it's all just a test, to see if I want it bad enough. That theme seems to reoccur constantly in my life.
To feel something in your instincts, the idea that maybe there is something out there that you would excel at. And I don't just mean above average, I mean extra ordinary, top of your class, renowned, famous. Just maybe. To not have a chance at that because of the slightest possible handicap. Why the fuck would anyone have gotten Beethoven a piano? Maybe it's all just a test, to see if I want it bad enough. That theme seems to reoccur constantly in my life.